Wednesday, August 31, 2005

School

N & J have their first day of preschool today at Saint Zachary's. They were up at 7am and getting dressed before their breakfast when I left for work. They really love school. Last night they were so excited they could not fall asleep for quite awhile. No night terrors for Nicki for two nights in a row, so hopefully she is past that.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Smile

"You want to know a secret?"

"I spent my whole life being scared: of not being ready, of not being right, of not being who I should be. And where did it get me?"

Final thought on SFU- life really is short, it is best to let your loved ones know how you feel about them, and also, realizing how short life is, to really savor it. Enjoy it. Do good deeds. Be compassionate. Continue to be amazed by life. Travel when you can. Read books. Never stop learning. Listen to others wisdom. Cherish your friends. Be the rock that people want to depend on for support. Accept the imperfections your family has, and do not hold it against them. Try and stay as healthy as you can, drink water and eat salads sometimes. Exercise when you can. Keep a positive outlook, yes bad things do happen to just about everyone at some point in their life, though things get better. They really do.

And then when you reminisce about your life, smile. Always keep smiling.

Trot Nixon Quote

"We fed off our fans and we fed off each other. We feed off our fans all the time, whether it's coming in late from a road trip, or in the middle of a long homestand. We always feed off our fans. I think they know that. They're a very important part of the way we play. Obviously, we have to go out on the field and get the job done, but they're always a huge part of us winning ballgames." -- 8.26, Trot Nixon on coming home

White Stripes

Great show last night, Jack wore a long black coat and a black top hat, he alternated between piano and guitar for most of the performance. Meg was on the left and really bashed the drums. It was a neat old theater with seats, first time in a while I was able to sit down during a concert. It always interests me that this band only has two people and yet they make so much loud music together. Meg only sang a little bit.

The gutters and air ducts at home were all cleaned yesterday, we called a company to come by and take care of it. N & J are off to the park this morning with Aga to play, it is again hot out here in Illinois.

I am off for a picnic lunch with Brian now.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Night Terrors

Nicki keeps having these by the way:

What are Night Terrors?

Night Terrors ar characterized by a sudden arousal from slow wave sleep with a piercing scream or cry, accompanied by autonomic (Controlled by the part of the nervous system that regulates motor functions of the heart, lungs, etc.) and behavioral manifestations of intense fear. Also known as Pavor Nocturnus, incubus, severe autonomic discharge, sleep terror.

What are the symptoms of Night Terrors?

A sudden episode of intense terror during sleep
The episodes usually occur within the first third of the night
Partial or total amnesia occurs for the events during the episode.
Associated features include:

Polysomnographic monitoring demonstrates the onset of episodes during stage 3 or 4 sleep
Tachycardia usually occurs in association with the episodes.
Other medical disorders are not the cause of the episode, e.g., epilepsy
Other sleep disorders can be present, e.g., nightmares.
How serious are Night Terrors?

Some children have episodes of night terror that may occur less than once per month, and do not result in harm to the child or others. While some children experience episodes less than once per week, and do not result in harm to the child or others. In its severest form, the episodes occur almost nightly, or are associated with physical injury to the child or others. Consult a sleep specialist if you are concerned.

Swimsuits

The elation N & J had when I asked them to get their swimsuits on yesterday was so touching. I set up the sprinker in the backyard and they ran under it for about 2 hours! Then I washed them up (they had their second shower in 4 years), then we went to a restaurant called Boston market, where they had cheese macaroni, corn, corn bread and milk.

They made sure to spray me several times with the water, which was ok by me as I also had on my swimming trunks.

It is going to be a long week, very busy at work, and a client visiting the office Wednesday. Tonight after work i am going to see the White Stripes concert in Chicago and Thursday night is the fantasy football draft. I have the seventh overall pick in the draft out of 12 teams. I am thinking either Culpepper(Minnesota Vikings qb) or McGahee (Buffallo bills running back).

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Hot

Shucks it is again way too hot out, we played outside briefly and now are cooling off indoors. Naptime soon for N & J, I will watch some sfu dvds!They are happy today because they spoke to their Auntie Jenney this morning.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Old

I know this is likely common sense, but elderly people love interacting with young children because of two reasons: Firstly, they themselves are old and are feeling their mortality. Secondly, it distracts/helps them and recalls the innocence of youth. Maybe. Who knows. Someday I hope I will get an understanding as to why I think about dying so often. Maybe part of it is due to spending high school living with my grandparents who both died of cancer. As I typed, who knows.

Watching SFU season 3 right now as the twins nap. I am hoping that I get to see the final episode sometime with Brian, tomorrow night he will host a party to watch it with a lot of his friends. Just feels like something I want to watch with him as well. My sister Jen likes the show but has not seen any of the season five episodes as of yet.

The twins are sleeping and it is so quiet, the zen fountain is trickling away and I am off to watch episode two from season three. Season three also is great, I think the only one I truly did not love is season four, mainly because of David's mugging.

If anyone is interested, check out the bios on the actors on imb.com, cool stuff. Besides Nate, Claire and Mrs. Fisher have some great experience. Was the actor who played David gay in real life? I thought not.

I am reading about 5 books now and I have three dvds to watch:

books: latest harry potter/trip to the stars/hilary clinton autobiography/the shining by stephen king/urban legends book

dvds: about schmidt(rental), sin city, million dollar baby

when all of the above are watched and/or read I will be happy.

MUAH

Library

Just got back from a thoroughly enjoyable visit to the local Des Plaines library. I could not find Aga's library card so I obtained a card of my own today. N & J love the library as much as I do. They used the Macintosh computers and did a few reading and counting games, then they accompanied me to browse for books. I discovered that they have a section of dvds and cds, so in addition to Nicholas Christopher's novel "Veronica" I also borrowed "About Schmidt" on dvd ( I think it has Kathy Bates in addition to Jack Nicholson so I continue to get my Six Feet Under fix), and also Vangelis's cd "Oddyssey" which is a compilation of his numerous movie soundtracks, such as "Blade Runner", and "Chariots of Fire". It is certainly new age music but it is so futuristic and I like it. Nicki didn't care for what I played in the car ride home but Julia liked the Chariots of Fire theme music.

My left foot still hurts so I might skip my training run today and rest up and do it tomorrow instead. I have that 10 mile race on Labor Day so I need to get ready. I can do 5 miles no problem at present.

Weather is nice today, not overly humid so likely I will take the twins in the backyard for a picnic.

One final thought on libraries- I love the quiet inside them. And of course I always love discovering new books. I think rather than buy books I will focus on the library for the time being. We are obsessing a bit lately about saving some money for the girls for their college funds.

Bye now, enjoy your Saturday everyone!

Friday, August 26, 2005

Rainbows

I ran in a "race for the rainbows" this summer while my family was in Poland because it was in Busse Woods near my house so I avoided having to get up super early and drive to Chicago, also it helps childeren, which is always a good thing.

When I hear the word rainbows I usually think of Kermit the Frog in the Muppet movie singing about them : "Why are there so many...songs about rainbows?"

This link is to the charity, it is a good one if anyone is interested.

http://www.rainbows.org/rainbows.html

The Nerd, Geek, or Dork Test

This was kind of amusing, it told me I am a geek:


http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=9935030990046738815

Friday

TGIF!!!

Mowed the lawn last night then took N & J to Borders bookstore where we read I think the final tally was six stories (winnie the pooh and piglet, pokemon, scooby doo, a story about bats, a story about a boy who befriends a dinosaur (I believe it was a brontasaurus) from the museum, and the sixth escapes me presently.

Today the air vents will all be cleaned, some company that does that is sending some guys out to take care of that. Monday they will clean the gutters.

I mowed the lawn because we thought it was going to be a huge thunderstorm, I mowed really frantically because it was so overcast and the cicadas or crickets or whatever insects they are were chirping so fast.

My left foot is still hurting, I have no idea what is going on with it.

I really hope it will rain a lot, when it rained a bit ago it really hellped a lot of my grass recover and get green again.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is: there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me


By: Sia

My Mom

My Mom is leaving very soon to fly back home to Boston where she will be incredibly busy yet again. Not only did my Mom watch the twins over the weekend so I could go for long runs, but she also did yesterday too,allowing Aga and I to watch a movie.
We had that great Chinese food from Lee's Manadarin restaurant on Elmhurst in Des Plaines, mongolian beef. Watched a romanitc comedy that my soon to be brother-in law was the executive producer for, I forget the title, but the main character was the actress who played Grace on that Will and Grace tv show. It was filmed in England.

I am still thinking about Six Feet Under as I am sure you can tell from my blog posts. I really want to see the final episode again and also I want to watch all od season one! I watched all of season two in February of this year and I thought it was excellent.

Mom and I took a walk last night before she had to go and then we sat on my front steps and talked. I think memories like that one are what make life living.

N & J did not get up to wave goodbye to me, they had a late night with their Nana.

I miss my Mom all ready, sometimes it is sad to not live in Boston.

"Everyone's Waiting"

About final SFU episdoe from hbo website:

In the series finale, David finally embraces a demon; Keith gives "tough love"; Nathaniel talks to his younger son; Brenda delivers early and fights Nate's negativity; Claire gets an exciting phone call; Ted inspires some sexy photos; Margaret is impressed to see Olivier's nurturing side; Rico and Vanessa celebrate an investment; Ruth finds consolation in the truth from Maggie; George's limitations eclipse his intentions; and Claire drives into her future.

Don't miss replays of the 75-minute season finale of Six Feet Under "Everyone's Waiting", Monday, August 22nd at 10 PM ET and Wednesday, August 24th at 11 PM ET.

More Six Feet Under Finale Reviews

FROM Chicago Tribune:

Unlike every preceding episode, which opened with a kind of mortality cocktail, the last installment of "Six Feet Under" began Sunday with a birth.

Not to worry. Death was waiting patiently in the wings, poised for a resonating last word. The 5-year-old serial drama, set in a Los Angeles funeral parlor, bit the dust in more ways than one.

Like the 62 or so victims that launched the other chapters, all of the major characters would be dearly departed by the entry's conclusion. True to form, this lead character massacre came about in a stylistic tour de force. Though not altogether original (novelist Michael Cunningham did something similar back in a 1990s novel), the stratagem involved a time trip well into the future and the later years of the 21st Century.

As Claire, the youngest adult in the Fisher family, drove to a new life in New York, the story flashed forward through time, revealing everyone's fate:

Ruth dies in old age in a hospital bed, Keith is shot during a robbery, acquisitive Rico keels over on a cruise and David passes out at a picnic, lured lovingly by a ghostly Keith. Brenda slumps, as if bored to death, by self-absorbed, prattling brother Billy.

Claire, the baby, misfit and artistic refugee, endures the longest. Her end in bed, after about a century of life, is enviable.

The tempting analogy to the cathartic pile-up of Greek tragedy is misleading. The death of the Fishers is more the stuff of a medieval morality play, an "Everyman" more than a "Hamlet." The Fishers died not from their tragic flaws (and God knows they had plenty of them). They died because everybody must: A benediction for the human condition as much as an end to a TV show.

Talk about closure. Meanwhile, the last episode hinted at plot resolutions and reconciliations in the perplexing, open-ended, bittersweet manner that distinguished the series. All summer, water-cooler debate puzzled over Nate Fisher's callousness toward pregnant wife Brenda. Several weeks ago, he died, unexpectedly at 40, after sleeping with another woman, telling Brenda he wanted a divorce and hinting much of the season their coming baby might be abnormal.

That left Brenda less than a weeping widow. She even for a time turned Nate's daughter by his first wife, Maya, over to her mother-in-law, Ruth, a kind of bloodless echo of "Medea." But the baby's birth and precarious, premature existence change everything. Thanks to a dream, in which Nate and his long-dead father, whom Brenda had never met, cradle the infant with unconditional love, Brenda finally forgives Nate, free to embrace her surviving Fisher in-laws as the only loving family she has known. Let the dead bury the dead; life is about the living.

David's panic attacks, born of last season's violent kidnapping, also give way to a purgative dream, wherein the monster of his imagination, in a beautiful bit of cinematic poetry, segues into a smiling Nate, enabling David to thwart his mental illness and commit to saving the Fisher family trade.

Family business and family bonds both survive, even if the nuclear Fisher clan is replaced by an extended interracial gay one, the kids' and Brenda's inclusion in it two very different types of adoption.

Even Rico and wife Vanessa, scions of their own family dynasty, will happily attend Keith and David's wedding.

Though at times weepily over the top, "Six Feet Under" concluded with class, voluminous surprise and a tempered hope. Most of the Fishers die in the company of loved ones. Only Claire, the sweet, vulnerable, hot-tempered outsider, dies alone, surrounded by photographs -- her art, her life mission and, as she draws that final breath, her everlasting memories.


FROM MIAMI HERALD:

Six Feet Under: 2001-2005.

Millions are mourning on this Monday morning, as Oscar-winning director Alan Ball's HBO series about the funereal Fisher family has finally drawn its last breath.

But the collective sadness is tempered by a sense of profound satisfaction -- the SFU finale proves to be the perfect ending to what some fans consider TV's most perfect show.

After dealing with the deaths of strangers for the better part of five years, the Fishers are now unraveling after Nate's untimely demise three episodes ago. Matriarch Ruth -- always a bundle of denial, frustration and regret -- is a zombie, a hollow husk.

As her ex-husband George tries to comfort her, Ruth says blankly: ``Each day I feel worse. More empty. More dead.''

''I promise you -- you will get through this,'' he counters.

``I don't want to get through this!''

Nate's wife Brenda is tortured by guilty visions of him, starting at the pediatric ICU, where their premature daughter Willa struggles to thrive.

''Too bad you don't believe in anything,'' he says, ``or you could pray.''

Later, as a doctor reassures Brenda that Willa shows no signs of permanent damage, Nate spits, ``Great. So she'll seem normal for awhile before whatever's f----- up about her shows up.''

Nate's brother David -- tortured by his loss, as well as recurring hallucinations of a psychotic hitchhiker who last year doused him with gasoline and threatened to burn him to death -- is too traumatized to be an effective parent to the preteen sons he is adopting with his partner Keith. So he goes back home to stay with his mother.

Immediately, Ruth -- whose depression worsens after her granddaughter Maya returns to live with Brenda -- seizes upon a chance to care for a child: ``Put your things upstairs, then I'll make you some cereal. You like it in your yellow bowl?''

And David, now the emotional equivalent of a little boy, acquiesces.

Claire, the youngest Fisher sibling, is planning to move across the country to work in a stock photography house. When she learns her job has fallen through, Nate appears to tell her to move to New York anyway.

''You're gonna land somewhere -- you'll be fine,'' he assures. ``You're talented. You're smart. You're ready.''

``What if I'm not?''

Then Nate puts it all in perspective. ``I spent my whole life being scared. Scared of not being ready, not being right, not being who I should be. And where did it get me? You can't stay here.''

Most series end in ambiguity, leaving viewers alone to imagine what may have happened to their favorite characters. Not so here. Claire's tearful drive away begins a masterful montage that chronologically wraps everything up. Clearly inspired by the scene in Paul Thomas Anderson's epic film Magnolia that uses Aimee Mann's haunting Wise Up as the soundtrack, the gripping sequence -- anchored by the melancholy Breathe Me by Sia -- shows us the future we're desperate to see. Since Six Feet Under centered around death, it was essential to tell us the end of the story -- a wholly unexpected, yet in retrospect, absolutely necessary choice.

We learn that baby Willa makes it to her first birthday, and beyond. We're thankful that Keith and David marry and continue to provide stability for their boys -- we later see Durrell married with children and Anthony seemingly happy with a gay partner. Though Ruth had refused to live with George, we find comfort in seeing him at her deathbed in 2025 -- and are shocked that the old man outlived her. Keith, the most powerful, stable character -- David's rock -- is the only one to meet a violent end, getting shot to death in 2029 while running his own security business. Fifteen years later, David has moved on with another partner, but it's Keith's face he sees as he dies. In 2051, Brenda's nutty brother Billy -- with whom she endured a creepy, incestuous bond -- finally talks her to death. Then we're left with only Claire, and though her eyes are cloudy with cataracts, she lives to 102, and in 2085 the Fisher clan is history.

In a two-hour, retrospective farewell special that aired a week ago, the cast stressed how much they'll miss their ''second family,'' and how the show ''raised the bar'' for television.

They poured everything they had into these unprecedentedly rich roles. And Sunday night's finale of Six Feet Under raised the bar even for itself, giving us more than we could have hoped for without ever coming off as cheesy or maudlin.

Yet, somehow it's still not enough.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Vince Vaughn

Saw Wedding Crashers last night, it was hilarious, Vince Vaughn is great. I know he basically plays the same character in all of is movies but it is funny regardless. His character in Wedding Crashers reminded me of his character in Swingers.

And then seeing Owen Wilson in it made me keep thinking about Royal Tennenbaums and Life Aquatic.

I still need to watch Sin City and Million Dollar Baby.

The girls keep waking up to wave at me when I drive to work, they wave out the window and blow me kisses. then they go back to bed, which I find really really endearing. Julia loves my Zen fountain and she was helping me move some of the stones around to change the waterfalls. She is so cute. Nicki has started carrying the Princess Leia Star Wars toy around in her purse/bag. It makes me smile.

Julia told my Mom about how Han Solo got frozen in Star Wars, Julia really is into it all, her favorite is Luke, she always calls him "my Luke", also cute.

They know I like Yoda and C-3PO.

Tonight is my Mom's last night year so I am hoping to get some time to talk to her alone.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Saint Zachary School

There is a possibility that Saint Zachary School might close as the enrollment is down substantially. The schoool sent a letter asking if N & J can be in a combined 3 and 4 year old preschool class that would meet Monday through Thursday instead of in the originally scheduled Monday/Wednesday/Friday 4 year old preschool class.

Aga and I are hoping the school stays open, as it is our church and it is only about a mile and a half from our house. That and of course, the girls love it.

I think they would love any school where they can play and make friends and have some caring teachers. Time will tell what happens with Saint Zachary's- hopefully more parents will send their children for a Catholic education. I didn't start with the Catholics until high school, so all is not hopeless if this does not work out.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Health

Most adults carry emotional or physical scars that may not be visible to the naked eye.

The End Part Two

"All mankind is of one author, and is one volume; when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated...As therefore the bell that rings to a sermon, calls not upon the preacher only, but upon the congregation to come: so this bell calls us all: but how much more me, who am brought so near the door by this sickness....No man is an island, entire of itself...any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind; and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee." -- John Donne (1572-1631), from Devotions Upon Emergent Occasions, Meditation XVII

The End

The end of Six Feet Under was last night, and the final 15 minutes were really difficult to watch. It really got me emotional I must admit. It made me think about my family and friends dying.

below is from the Boston Globe:

A poignant, satisfying end for 'Six Feet Under'
Spoiler alert: This story reveals the plot of the series finale.

Last night, ''Six Feet Under" rode to an end with an operatic, bittersweet, and deeply satisfying climax. The 75-minute episode built up to a sweeping 6-minute epilogue in which we glimpsed the futures -- and the deaths -- of each major character as the young Claire Fisher drove east to New York. We saw the image of Nate fall out of Claire's sideview mirror in LA, as she sped forward into decades of tomorrows.

You couldn't have asked for a more arresting and poignant farewell sequence, after five seasons of melodramatic irresolution. At last, ''Six Feet Under" leaped out of its day-to-day angst and into the closure of the long view, set to the heightened strains of a song called ''Breathe Me" by Sia. The montage was an exhilarating rush into finality, each character's epigraph like a sign on Claire's journey, until, ultimately, we saw ''Claire Simone Fisher: 1983-2085." Fade to white.

Talk about conclusions. Last night, all of the Fishers' stories were tied up forever. As Claire drove, we flashed forward to an elderly Ruth on her deathbed, George, Claire, and David waiting by her side, and then we saw ''Ruth O'Conner Fisher: 1946-2025." We saw Keith and David marry, we saw Claire reconnect with and marry Ted, we saw Keith get shot to death while working for his own security company. We saw David greet Keith's ghost 15 years later (''David James Fisher: 1969-2044"), and we saw a wizened Brenda -- with Billy, of course -- quietly nod out (''Brenda Chenowith: 1969-2051").

In a way, the Fisher story came full circle, from Nathaniel Fisher's passing in the very first episode of ''Six Feet Under" to the deaths of the rest of the Fisher family in the last. And each of the white-lit future shots also held information about the characters' lives, as well as their deaths. If you looked carefully, you saw that Durrell went on to work at the funeral home with his father, David; that Anthony was gay; that Brenda found another man; that Ruth did indeed go on to start a doggie day-care center at her sister's home. The aging makeup on the characters was sketchy at times, and yet that fit the sequence's rampant embalming of the characters.

Obviously, ''Six Feet Under" never shied away from the subject of death, but its last moments were an orgy of mortality. They were a bold illustration of what creator Alan Ball, who wrote and directed the episode, has been getting at all along -- that life passes in the blink of an eye. There's no denying that we all die. In the series' crowning moments, all the ''Six Feet Under" lives have wound to a stop, little more than photographs on the walls in the elderly Claire's home.

And what about last night's finale before the emotional final sequence? It, too, satisfied. Each member of the Fisher family seemed to earn a bit of peace at long last, both in their imperfect relationships and their troubled fantasies. Ruth and Brenda left behind their tension to raise Maya and newborn Willa; Claire and Ruth felt and finally spoke of their mutual love; George and Ruth remained close friends; David stared down his own masochistic spinelessness; Brenda had a consoling vision of Nate's acceptance; and David and Keith bought and redecorated the funeral home.

On the eve of Claire's departure to New York, the extended family gathered to reminisce and warmly offer a toast to Nate. It had to be the most harmonious Fisher dinner ever.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Muppets

N & J are way into the Muppets now, they always ask to watch the dvd.

I like Kermit and the Eagle.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Zen Fountain

Aga got me a zen rock fountain and a small Japanese lantern for our anniversary, the fountain is in the kitchen and the lantern is near the other one I have in the front with the plants and flowers, to the right of the garage.

We went out for dinner and to a movie, a comedy. N & J were very good for my Mom while we were gone. They stayed in bed but did not go to sleep until we got home so that they could "kiss us goodnight".

This morning I watched the first half of the Manchester United soccer game, then the girls finished watching a Muppets dvd. Then I prepared them breakfast and ran on the treadmill. Had a shower, got myself and also N & J dressed, all ready for "Nana Sheila".

My Mom is here now, she made me breakfast! Scrambled egg and wheat toast, I always feel so much better when I start the day with breakfast, and it helps me lose weight. Eating three squares beats skipping meals.

Nicki has pink and blue hair extensions in her hair, and insisted on wearing a skirt today, Julia has on red shorts, the ones that say "LIFEGUARD" on the butt, and she is wearing a pink shirt.

Mom and I are happy the Red Sox won 4-3 in extra innings last night, Manny delivered the game winning hit.

Today we are going to play with the girls and hopefully do a bit of shopping. I need to get new contact lenses at some point, I am wearing my last pair. I have the kind I can sleep in, and wear them for a month at a time, my 6 month supply is at an end, the last pair are in my eyes now!

Happy weekend to everybody!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Anniversary

Today, August 19th is my 10 year wedding anniversary. Kind of hard to believe, but true.

We are probably going to go see a movie, a comedy tonight while my Mom watches N & J. Before our children were born we used to go to one sometimes two movies at the theater every week, and we still rent and buy lots of dvds to watch at night in the basement.

On another note, my little sister Liz is seriously ill so please say a prayer for her. Had a very long talk about her with my Mom last night.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

SIX FEET UNDER FINALE

the final episode of Six Feet Under is this Sunday at 8pm central time, here is an article about it I found. Note: There are some spoliers so read it after Sunday if you want to be fully surprised by the finale. I really loved this show, it was great and it made me think about a lot of things.



Befitting any drama about a family that owns a funeral home, "Six Feet Under" gives itself a graceful send-off to end its five-season run.

And befitting "Six Feet Under," this finale is not without tears, histrionics, four-letter words, dark humor and (naturally) death. The Fishers wouldn't have it any other way.

At the start of the episode (9 p.m. EDT Sunday on HBO), everyone seems to be going nuts. Small wonder. Life has been awfully punishing of late.

Nate Fisher, the conflicted man-boy, died three episodes ago from a brain hemorrhage. Now his younger brother David, sister Claire and mother Ruth, as well as his estranged wife Brenda (who gives birth prematurely to their child) sink further into gloom.

Meanwhile, Nate ( Peter Krause) continues his post-mortem haunts, in this episode initially berating Brenda ( Rachel Griffiths) for causing their infant daughter's possible brain damage.

Rebellious artist Claire ( Lauren Ambrose) is panicked about moving from Los Angeles and launching her career. Ruth ( Frances Conroy), whose husband died in the series' debut, has now buried her first-born and faces losing her daughter.

And what about David ( Michael C. Hall), the dutiful son who ran the funeral home and served as the moral center of the series? During its run, he has confronted his homosexuality, formed a lasting relationship and adopted two boys. But now, grief-stricken, he has hit a wall.

To some extent, this is all par for the "Six Feet Under" course, as the series retrospective (8 p.m. Sunday) should bear out. For five rocky seasons, the Fishers and everyone who shared their orbit have taken it on the chin. They have waged war with themselves, one another and an unforgiving universe.

Smart, self-absorbed, unsettled, all too human — to us, these people were fascinating and often relatable. But not always easy to deal with. They could really try our patience. They were overdue for fixing.

Good news: By the end of the 75-minute finale, we can leave them secure in knowing their recovery has begun. And thanks to the wondrously fitting postscript, we will know a great deal more.

Even at the end, "Six Feet Under" doesn't go soft. But it takes its leave with its affairs in order. It can rest, at last, in peace.

A groundbreaking series (in more ways than one) when it premiered in June 2001, "Six Feet Under" dared to whistle past the graveyard with its fancifully discomfiting look at life and death. It fulfilled a promise by creator Alan Ball (who wrote and directed the finale) to be "a show about life in the presence of death."

Death was always dropping in. At the start of each episode (nearly every one, that is, except the finale), someone met his or her demise in a fashion that might be heartbreaking (claimed by sudden infant death syndrome), grotesque (cut in half by an elevator) or morbidly funny (hit by a car while witnessing the Rapture). Each slice of life (or, more aptly, slice of death) was meant to demonstrate the randomness and ineluctability of our common fate.

"Six Feet Under" thought a lot about death, and about death's impact on the survivors. After all, it viewed death through the eyes of a family that runs a funeral home — assisting at the cusp of the hereafter, while struggling with the here and now.

In its premiere four years ago, its tone was quickly established: The patriarch, Nathaniel Fisher, was killed while fiddling with his cigarette when a bus smacked into the hearse he was driving.

But he never went away. Played by Richard Jenkins, he engaged in an active afterlife throughout the series' run.

Now, on the finale, he reappears to bully his son David into saving himself. Later in the episode, he and son Nate jointly offer Brenda a much-needed blessing.

On "Six Feet Under," ghostly presences are skilled at saying what needs to be said, as when Nate gives Claire a pep talk about moving to New York to pursue her photography.

"You want to know a secret?" he counsels. "I spent my whole life being scared: of not being ready, of not being right, of not being who I should be. And where did it get me?"

Then, in the show's closing minutes, as Claire gathers the people she loves most for a farewell photo before she drives away, Nate, looking on, says a curious thing.

"You can't take a picture of this," he tells her. "It's already gone."

In this richly satisfying finish to a series like none other, we understand what he means. We see these characters as we have never seen them before. But as we realize how much we cared for them, we understand they're not there. "Six Feet Under" will be over. So the pictures that count will reside inside us. Long after it has gone.

Visitor!

My Mom is is Illinois from Boston to visit my family! I just got back from lunch (still at work) and she left a message, she is waiting to get her luggage and then she is going to get her rental car and drive to my house. I will see her tonight!

HOORAY! (My Mom is unbelievably cool, and her visits are always great).

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Disney character?

take this quiz to determine which Disney character is your alter ego, then post a comment telling me which one you are!!!

http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=3049

By the way, I am:

The Beast from Beauty and the Beast, it told me: "Your alter ego is the Beast! But that is only a name...you are kind hearted and sweet, people just misunderstand you."

Fruit Salad

This is a song by that children's group "The Wiggles" that they sang Saturday and now I just can;t get it out of my head! Of course I just keep repeating "fruit salad...yummy,yummy" incessantly in my head!!!!!

Fruit Salad
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Yummy, yummy, yummy, yummy, fruit salad.

Let's make some fruit salad today, oh huh huh
It's fun to do it's a healthy way
Take all the fruit that you want to eat
It's gonna be a fruit salad treat


The first step
Peal your bananas
The second step
Toss in some grapes
The third step
Chop up some apples
Chop up some mellons and put them on your plate

Now we've made it, it's time to eat it
It tastes so good that you just can't beat it
Give everyone a plate and a spoon
We'll all be eating it very soon


The first step
Eat up the bananas
The second step
Eat up some grapes
The third step
Eat up some apples
Eat up the mellons now there's nothing on your plate

Now we had our fruit salad today
It's time to put the scraps away
Wash the bowl and wash the spoon
Let's do it all again real soon


Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Yummy, yummy, yummy, yummy, fruit salad.

Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy
Fruit Salad, yummy, yummy

More about Caesar Salads

The combination of crisp romaine lettuce leaves, lots of garlic, a sprinkle of freshly grated Parmesan, and a rich, creamy dressing -- ingredients that go into the classic Caesar -- have not changed much in the 80 years since the salad was created.


And even though styles of dishes, particularly salads, keep evolving, the trusty Caesar has hardly waned in popularity. ''It's one of the things that everybody wants to eat," says Kathy Sidell Trustman, whose Chestnut Hill hot spot, the Metropolitan Club, serves about 50 Caesars on a busy night. ''You have to have it [on the menu] -- at least in Boston." she says.

As a result, restaurants try to make their Caesars stand out a little. You can find the salad served with shaved Parmesan, with romaine hearts presented as a horizontal stack, with homemade croutons, and lately with the addition of grilled chicken, which turns the Caesar into a main course.

The legend of the salad is as dramatic as its original presentation. In the summer of 1924, Italian restaurateur Caesar Cardini was running low on food at his restaurant in Tijuana, Mexico. He is said to have put together a salad for guests from whatever was on hand. It was prepared tableside, and when the dressing was ready, the romaine leaves were coated and placed stem-ends facing out in a circle around the plate, so diners could eat using fingers. The Caesar salad became wildly popular with tourists and celebrities who made the trip from Hollywood.

Now, the salad isn't prepared with the same tableside flourish, and forks are required, but the ingredients have not changed. Anchovies were not in the original salad, but they're added now. Diners today fall into two groups: those who want the salty little fish removed from their salads and those who prefer extra. For them, luxurious white anchovies (see below) are considered the ultimate treats.

The Metropolitan Club offers two Caesars. The classic features brioche croutons and a dressing made with muscat vinegar, anchovy paste, Parmesan cheese, Dijon mustard, Worcestershire sauce, Tabasco, cayenne pepper, lemon juice, egg yolks, and oil; the other is a grilled romaine salad served over ''brioche pillows," with the same Caesar dressing and white anchovies.

Chef Jeffrey Fournier developed the grilled salad more than a decade ago in Santa Monica, Calif. ''It was very experimental," he says. ''We'd been grilling frisee, and I began grilling romaine, serving it with an herbed vinaigrette." What appeals to him is ''the combination of the smokiness from the grill and the saltiness of the anchovies and the cheese." When the Metropolitan Club first opened, he says, the traditional Caesar outsold its grilled cousin by 300 percent. Now, the gap has narrowed to only 20 percent. ''I'm proud of that," he says. ''I think it's the direction Caesar salads will take."

At the South End's B&G Oysters, Caesar is the best-selling salad. ''We used to have an iceberg wedge on the menu, but Barbara [Lynch, the owner] and I got tired of it," says chef Greg Reeves. ''We wanted a classic salad and thought of a Caesar. It's a nice, simple, basic salad -- something everyone can relate to."

Reeves's dressing, which he calls Caesar aioli -- after the garlicky French mayonnaise -- uses red wine vinegar and grapeseed oil as a base, with chopped anchovies. He finishes the salad with marinated Italian or Spanish white anchovies. The salad also boasts homemade croutons from sourdough baguettes. The Caesar, he says, ''is our way of replacing a classic with a classic."

Traditionally, Caesar dressing is made with uncooked egg yolks, something that has made diners wary in recent years. Some restaurants make the dressing the classic way, others cook the egg briefly before adding it to the dressing. At Domani, chef Rene Michelena uses eggs to offer a twist, he says, ''but not so much that it turns people off." The dish actually has a few twists, and is the most popular salad on the appetizer menu of this popular newcomer in Copley Square.

Michelena combines romaine and red leaf lettuces and radicchio, and serves the salad with a soft-cooked whole egg on top. ''It looks like a hard-boiled egg, but as soon as you touch it, the yolk runs and you can mix it in and it makes the salad a little creamier," he says.

Instead of raw egg yolks in his dressing, he uses coddled eggs, which he believes make the mixture lighter, fluffier, and creamier. He blends the lightly cooked eggs in a food processor with Tabasco and Worcestershire sauces, garlic, and anchovy paste. Then he adds canola oil and lemon juice, and finishes the dressing with a top-quality olive oil. When orders come in, he adds Parmesan. The kitchen makes its own croutons, from focaccia. ''They are softer than other croutons," says Michelena.

And the modern interpretations of Cardini's classic go on, perhaps starting more culinary legends.

Dvds

I am way behind on my dvd watching, I have the following I need to watch:

Million Dollar Baby
Sin City
four or five episodes of Six Feet Under season five
the Simpsons season 6 ( it comes in a box that is Homer's head, and it has the parody of Stephen King's 'The Shining' included). This of course forced me to start re-reading the Shining last night. I read about half of it, still scary!

Last night was fun the girls wanted to have lots of races in the backyard when I first got home, so I of course always let them win. Then after dinner they rode their bikes to the park and I ran after them. Julia said I was slow and I ran past her and she was shocked. Nicki has a new bike helmet Aga got for her at a garage sale, it is pink. Nicki loves this helmet, she even was wearing it for a while when she went down the slides at the park, it was funny. It got a bit hotter yesterday, I wonder if the heat will continue? I hope not, I am really ready for fall, baseball playoffs, and football season to begin.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Odds & Sods

Aga has the flu, the girls still seem to not have recovered from the excitement of the weekend. Yesterday I took them out for pizza and then to the park so Aga could try and rest/recuperate a bit. After going down the slides and running around for a while they wanted to be pushed on the swings. Afer that we went home and they had their bath and went to bed after reading a few stories.

I read Stephen King's "On Writing" and finished it, like most of his books it was a very quick read. It was more of an autobiography than a book that taught any insights on writing. He did say to write 10 pages per day for 6 days per week, to not worry about plot, to make sure you write in a comfortable setting. What intrigued me the most was reading about how a car hit him and his physical therapy after surgery. I really like his books "'Salem's Lot" and "It", also his short stories usually are very good.

My Mom is coming to visit Thursday for a week to watch N & J while Aga and I celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary this Friday the 19th of August.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Return to Innocence

Remember being little and thinking popsicles, science-fiction, baseball and christmas were the best things ever. How quickly we lose our innocence, especially now, this generation, time moves so fast and they are exposed to stuff when they are young that I was not exposed to until I was 16. It's sad but it is life. I remember first hearing Enigma in college, the chanting monks was so cool. I guess I consider this stuff9losing innocence) so often because of my daughters. This song was from their second album:

Return to Innocence by Enigma:

Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion

Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence.

If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.

Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence.

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Birthdays

N & J had fun at Maddy's birthday they ate hot dogs, corn and rolls, played with fingerpaints, jumped on the trampoline.

I am glad to be home though.

Wiggles

Off to see the Wiggles show (4 guys who sing children's songs, they are from Australia).

After that we are going to a birthday party for Maddy (N & J's friend who lives across the street), she is turning 5 today.

I organized my closet while the girls ate lunch and watched Mary Poppins on dvd.

I need to try and figure out the second cd for my sister Jenney's wedding. She sent me a really cool link about Bob Marley:

www.bobmarley.com/songs/songs_bytitle.html

last night Aga bought me a frame for my hammock, the hammock ended up being my Father's Day gift. Unfortunately, after assembly the frame was too big, so it needs to be returned. Possibility of no hammock action this summer!

OK I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend, I am so relieved it is cooler lately, the ninety degree weather was getting old.

I also organzied a bit of my stuff in the basement, I counted 19 race bibs, and I started running races in 2003, I have at least 2 more races this year, so that would be 21, an average of 7 races per year. Maybe I will do more than 2 more this year though who knows. I would love to do the Half Marathon in Las Vegas in January, maybe my Mom can babysit the twins for a weekend while I do that, but then again flying and hotel involves money that I do not have. We will see.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Polar Bear Swims!

This is really cool, I do love polar bears.

OSLO (Reuters) - Scientists have tracked a tagged polar bear swimming at least 74 km in just one day -- and maybe up to 100 km -- providing the first conclusive proof the bears can cover such giant distances in the water.


Bears often roam thousands of kilometres in a year in search of prey such as seals and there has often been anecdotal evidence of prodigious ursine swims, with bears turning up on remote islands or across wide bays.

However, previously there had been doubts about whether the bears had walked over ice part of the way or hitched a ride on an iceberg.

"What's new this time is that we have data showing how long the bear was in the water," Jon Aars, a researcher at the Norwegian Polar Institute, said on Friday.

"This is the first time that such a long swim has been documented by satellite telemetry for polar bears," the institute added.

The female bear, equipped with a satellite tracking device, entered the water on the east of the Norwegian Arctic island of Spitsbergen early on July 20, swam northeast and re-emerged on the island of Edgeoya a day later.

A sensor on the bear's collar sent different signals when it was in salty sea water compared to on land or on ice.

"This is an astonishing swim," Aars said, saying it showed that polar bears could in many ways be classified as marine mammals -- a group including whales and dolphins.

Aars said the bear, dubbed "Skadi" after a Norse goddess of snow, had probably swum closer to 100 km (62 miles) since the bear almost certainly did not swim the 74 km (46 miles) between the two points in an exact straight line.

The bear covered the gap in about 24 hours, giving an average speed of 3-4 kmh -- about as fast as a person walking.

MELTING FAST

The swim probably meant that two cubs, with Skadi when the bear was marked in the spring, had died earlier in the summer. Mortality rates among polar bear cubs are high.

"We don't think cubs could swim that far -- they lose heat much faster than adults," Aars said. Cubs usually stay with their mother for about 2.5 years.

The WWF environmental group said cubs were most at risk in a warming Arctic which could destroy cubs' dens. "If sea ice retreats from denning areas it will first become a problem for females with small cubs," said Tonje Folkestad of the WWF.

An eight-nation report by 250 experts last year said that the Arctic was warming twice as fast as the rest of the globe and said that a buildup of heat-trapping gases from factories, power plants and cars was largely to blame.

It said global warming could make the Arctic Ocean ice-free by the end of the century, threatening to wipe out species such as polar bears.

Researchers say that the Arctic is warming faster than the rest of the globe because darker ground and sea water, once exposed, soak up much more heat than reflective ice and snow.

The WWF has an Internet satellite tracking system for Skadi and another bear at: http://www.panda.org/about_wwf/where_we_work/arctic/polar_bear/i ndex.cfm

Good ole Dubya

Three more years of "Dubya". Shucks.


ALL presidents, whatever their confession or denomination, are closet numerologists. Numbers are how they read the mood and track the progress of the nation they govern. For George Bush, the numbers—rising casualty rates in Iraq, falling approval ratings at home—have not been good of late. Hence he is turning with some enthusiasm to a happier set of figures: those tracking the American economy's resilience and resurgence.

This week, he summoned his economic team to a meeting at his ranch in Crawford, Texas. Under a painting of a rodeo, they discussed an economy that is kicking strongly, but not bucking out of control. Output grew at an annual rate of 3.4% in the second quarter, a little slower than in the first. This was largely because firms chose to run down their inventories (subtracting 2.3 percentage points from growth) rather than making new stuff. With their shelves now depleted, companies are expected to restock in the coming months and output is expected to rebound. Some analysts now forecast growth of 5% this quarter.



The White House posts a recent speech by Mr Bush on America's economy. The president's Advisory Panel on Federal Tax Reform postponed its report to give Mr Bush more time to sell his proposals on Social Security reform. The Bureau of Labour Statistics publishes data on America’s economy. See also the Federal Reserve.






Momentum is gathering. Cars left the showrooms at a near-record rate in July (20.8m a year), and existing home sales reached all-time highs the month before (7.3m a year). Factories reported faster activity and fuller order books, especially for capital goods (up by 3.9% in June) that presage stronger investment. Even the federal government is doing well. So far this fiscal year, it has collected about $210 billion more in taxes than it had by this time last year.

Best of all, hiring is steady and sure. Employers added 207,000 workers to their payrolls in July, and 42,000 more than previously thought in May and June. They have hired about 200,000 workers a month on average since the end of January—not spectacular by the standards of the 1990s, but a marked improvement on Mr Bush's first term.

The Federal Reserve has digested the same numbers as Mr Bush and reached a similar conclusion. There is much to welcome and little to fear in the economy's current progress. This week, as widely expected, it raised interest rates by a quarter-point. It has now made ten such “measured” steps since June 2004. Judging by the statement accompanying its decision, it looks set to make more such steps.

Unlike central bankers and presidents, the public at large sets little store by numbers. Only a fifth of those polled recently by CBS News thought the country's economic fortunes were improving, whatever the statisticians might tell them. More than half disapproved of Mr Bush's handling of the economy.






What explains their scepticism? In Mr Bush's first term, he was dogged by the question: Where are the jobs? Now the question is: Where are the pay rises? Workers' total compensation grew strongly for the three quarters that began in July of last year (see chart)—strongly enough to alarm some of the inflation hawks at the Fed. But these gains were probably not very widespread, confined to those lucky employees who collected juicy bonuses or cashed in their stock options. Last quarter, according to figures released on August 9th, compensation actually fell, in real terms. This will reassure the Fed for now. But Mr Bush may be less pleased: better paid workers are happier voters.

Indeed, the picture is worse for workers than these figures imply. Not all of an employee's compensation ends up in his pay packet. Much of it goes in the form of benefits, such as employer contributions to health insurance or pensions. According to the Bureau of Labour Statistics, the cost of such benefits accounted for almost 60% of the gains in compensation enjoyed by private-sector workers in the first quarter of the year, and nearly 35% of the gains in the second. By the bureau's reckoning, wages and salaries proper grew by only 2.4% in the year to June, slower than the rate of inflation.

Despite these meagre pay gains, households are eager to spend whatever they get. In June, they earned just over $9 trillion (at an annual rate) in disposable income. They duly disposed of all but $1.9 billion (0.02%) of it. Only in the month after September 11th, when shopping was deemed a patriotic duty, has the household saving-rate been lower. Households save so little of what they earn because they gain so much from what they already own. In the 12 months to March the value of their houses rose by $2.3 trillion, according to the Fed. Home prices rose by almost 15% in the year to June, the fastest in decades.

Can these gains continue? Judging by the minutes of its recent meetings, the Fed is agnostic about the existence of a bubble in the housing market. One simply cannot know for sure, it says. Even if a bubble does exist, the Fed believes it should do little about it. America's central bank is making the opposite of Pascal's wager: one cannot know whether an almighty bubble exists, so one should act as if it doesn't.

As for Mr Bush, he began his second term with the bold idea of reviving thrift in America. By reforming taxes and entitlements, he would encourage industry and frugality. Those ambitions are currently entombed in Congress and his own weakness. If it had stuck to its original schedule, his commission on fundamental tax reform would have reported by now. Instead, Mr Bush postponed its report to give himself time to sell his Social Security reform. Unfortunately, if he continues to wait for that sale to be made, the commission may never report at all.

Mr Bush's economic team now has more modest yardsticks for success. It is proud of the 217 votes it wrung out of the House of Representatives last month to secure passage of the Central American Free Trade Agreement. It is also pleased with China's small revaluation of its currency, which has bought some respite from the protectionists in Congress. Even the $286-billion transport bill—which Mr Bush once threatened to veto, but this week seemed happy to sign—is being hailed as a legislative success. Roads and bridges, not the “third rail of politics” (as Social Security is known), are about the summit of his current ambitions.

Mr Bush still has more than three years to achieve his grander goals of reforming taxes and overhauling entitlements. But before he can hope to transform the American economy, he must hope the economy's good numbers transform his own flagging ones.

Top 10 lists

Personal opinion of CW:

top 10 bands:

1 the Beatles
2 U2
3 the Cure
4 Suede
5 Cheap Trick
6 Bowie
7 Pink Floyd
8 Neil Young
9 Public Image Limited
10 Radiohead

top 10 albums:

1. Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band- the Beatles
2. Dog Man Star - Suede
3. the Unforgettable Fire - U2
4. Disintegration - the Cure
5. At Budokan - Cheap Trick
6. Low - Bowie
7. Harvest - Neil Young
8. Second Edition - Public Image Limited
9. Animals - Pink Floyd
10. Hail to the Thief - Radiohead

top 2 songs from each of the above albums:

1. A Little Help From My Friends/A Day in the Life
2. The Two Of Us/Heroine
3. Pride(In the Name of Love)/Bad
4. Pictures of You/Untitled
5. Big Eyes/Surrender
6. Be My Wife/Always Crashing in the Same Car
7. Old Man/Heart of Gold
8. Graveyard/Albatross
9. Pigs on the Wing/Dogs
10. There, there/Backdrafts

top 10 films

1. Swingers
2. Reservoir Dogs
3. Star Wars
4. the Return of the King
5. Fletch
6. Ordinary People
7. Good Will Hunting
8. Chariots of Fire
9. Citizen Kane
10. Amadeus

top 10 red sox players of all time

1. ted williams
2 yaz
3. carlton fisk
4. jim rice
5. luis tiant
6. dennis eckersly
7. pedro martinez
8. dwight evans
9. manny ramirez
10. david ortiz

honorable mentions: the entire 2004 world series championship team (especially curt schilling, keith foulke, trot nixon, and jason varitek) Sorry that Nomar Garciaparra does not make the cut.

top 10 foods

1. lobster
2. steak
3. caesar salad
4. pizza (pepperoni and onions)
5. sushi
6. eggs with bacon
7. cheesecake
8. broccoli
9. chocolate chip cookies
10. grilled chicken breast

top 10 colors

1. orange
2. green
3. red
4. black
5. yellow
6. blue
7. magenta
8. beige
9. white
10. aquamarine

top 10 animals(including mammals and birds)

1. cat
2. polar bear
3. dog
4. penguin
5. porcupine
6. cardinal
7. dolphin
8. owl
9. toucan
10. whale

top 10 places I have visited:

1. Boston
2. Chatham in Cape Cod
3. Krakow, Poland
4. Cancun, Mexico
5. West Palm Beach, Florida
6. Hong Kong
7. Beijing, China
8. London, England
9. Killarney, Ireland
10. Nassau, Bahamas

top 5 concerts attended:

1. U2 1985 Worcester Centrum for Unforgettable Fire tour
2. the Cure at Great Woods 1989 Disintegration tour
3. Bowie in Washington dc for Sound & vision tour 1992 or so
4. Neil Young in Rosemont,Illinois the Ragged Glory tour
5. Public Image Limited at Orpheum Theater in Boston, mass for the Album tour
6. Suede at Cabaret Metro in Chicago for the Dog Man Star tour 1993
7. Guided by Voices second to last ever concert performed in their history at Cabaret Metro 2004 (Electrifying Conclusion tour)
8. Peter Murphy at Axis in Boston 1992
9. U2 at the Fleet Center in Boston 26, 2005- Al Gore was there, and Bono improvised all of the encores, including "Out of Control", one of the only times they played it for the entire Vertigo tour
10. Smashing Pumpkins at Lounge Ax in Chicago to about 200 people before Siamese dream was released.

honorable mentions: dead can dance, bauhaus, cheap trick

top 5 beverages

1. ice water
2. ginger ale
3. tangueray gin and tonic with lime
4. diet pepsi
5. grapefruit juice

top 5 possessions

1. iPod
2. Honda Accord
3. Maui Jim sunglasses
4. vintage Yaz 1975 red sox jersey
5. iBook

top 5 races to date:

1. chicago distance classic half marthon 2004
2. chicago marathon 2003
3. lincoln park zoo 5k race 2003
4. elgin valley fox trot 10 mile race 2005
5. chicago half marathon 2003

Thankful

Things I am thankful for:

my family:

My wife Aga always looks great, and she cooks dinner for me almost every day, lets me run after work every Thursday, watches movies with me, helps me work on a financial budget,my sister Jen is getting married in October, my Mom is visiting us in Des Plaines next Thursday for a week, my Dad called me yesterday for the first time in about 6 months, my daughters always hug, kiss me and wave goodbye to me every day and race to me when I return from work to hug me again.

my friends:

I don't have many of them, I was thinking about this during the race last night, but I started to believe it is better to have a few really amazing friends than have many friends. I have Brian who always listens to me and is so much fun to be around, and who makes me lots of cds and dvds even without my asking which is nice, I have Bill C. way out in San Diego who though distant still is decent and also is a very caring guy, I have Pete though we surely are not as close as we used to be.

my health:
Probably not as good as it should be, going to the doctor after having months of headaches and being concerned about high blood pressure and cholesterol was scary to say the least. I think losing some weight, wathcing my diet(eating more salads, drinking water), and all the running has helped. I did scale back from a minimum of 20 miles per week of runing to just 15 but that's ok. The hot weather this summer has dictated that somewhat.

Windows

N & J have a new habit since they have returned from Poland which is while I am showering and getting dressed to go to work, they take some of their stuffed animals, some of the Star Wars figures, and Nicki usually takes a pillow and blanket from her bed, and they stand on the couch, open the blinds and wave to me. Nicki puts her hand behing her "baby unicorn" stuffed naimal and has it wave its hand to me. Julia always takes the Luke Skywalker action figure and has it wave to me. It is funny.

Yesterday morning Julia was still asleep and only Nicki waved to me. I told Nicki I would not see her later that day because I was going to a race in Chicago and then to visit my friends Brian and Roley. Later, Julia woke up and was upset because she was unable to wave goodbye to me. Aga told Julia, "that's ok when Daddy comes home from work you can wave to him out the window", and Nicki said "No, Daddy will be home late and we will be sleeping, he has to go to a race in Chicago". Nicki was not trying to be spiteful she was just sharing the information.

There is a loud booming sound that comes from apipe in our basement several times every hour, it is odd but I have no idea how to examine it, stop it, or explain it to someone. It is not the heater or air conditioning, it is a big thick silver pipe. We are perplexed by it.

The race went very well, it is called Race Judicata, a race that earns money for people in Chicago who cannot afford legal help. I was about 3 minutes faster on this race than the other two 5K races I ran earlier this summer. I think the fact that it rained and was cooler than it has been helped tremendously.

I am looking forward to the weekend, I am really happy that today is Friday.

McDonalds Diet?

I am very skeptical about this:

Inspired by the documentary "Super Size Me," Merab Morgan decided to give a fast-food-only diet a try. The construction worker and mother of two ate only at McDonald's for 90 days -- and dropped 37 pounds in the process.

Morgan, from Raleigh, thought the documentary had unfairly targeted the world's largest restaurant company, implying that the obese were victims of a careless corporate giant. People are responsible for what they eat, she said, not restaurants. The problem with a McDonald's-only diet isn't what's on the menu, but the choices made from it, she said.

"I thought it's two birds with one stone -- to lose weight and to prove a point for the little fat people," Morgan said. "Just because they accidentally put an apple pie in my bag instead of my apple dippers doesn't mean I'm going to say, 'Oh, I can eat the apple pie.'"

Spurlock, who turned his surprise-hit movie into a TV show on the FX network, isn't talking about Morgan or the many other McDieters who have criticized his film and found success losing weight by eating healthy foods off the McDonald's menu, said his publicist, David Magdael.

One person went so far as to make her own independent film about dieting at McDonald's. "Me and Mickey D" follows Soso Whaley, of Kensington, N.H., as she spends three 30-day periods on the diet. She dropped from 175 to 139 pounds, eating 2,000 calories-a-day at McDonald's.

"I had to think about what I was eating," Whaley said. "I couldn't just walk in there and say 'I'll take a cinnamon bun and a Diet Coke.' ... I know a lot of people are really turned off by the whole thought of monitoring what they are eating, but that's part of the problem."

As might be expected, McDonald's also objected to the impressions left by Spurlock's film. Walt Riker, the company's vice president of corporate communications, said Oak Brook, Ill.-based company is pleased -- but not surprised -- that some customers have lost weight eating only at the fast-food giant.

Spurlock's film "really spurred a backlash based on common sense," Riker said.

Morgan used nutritional information downloaded from McDonald's Web site to create meal plans of no more than 1,400 calories a day. She only ate french fries twice, usually choosing burgers and salads. Those choices are a stark contrast with those made by Spurlock, who ate every menu item at least once.

At the end of the 90 days, she had dropped from 227 to 190 pounds.

"It feels great," she said. "Because, the truth of the matter is that beauty is power, and if you're fat, or your overweight, then people don't really take you seriously."

Dawn Jackson Blatner, a registered dietitian and spokeswoman for the American Dietetic Association, agreed that a low-calorie, McDonald's-only diet can help people lose weight but said it may not offer enough long-term variety. Whatever an individual does to lose weight, they need to do for the rest of their life, she said.

Morgan said she hasn't decided if she will stick with the McDonald's-only plan to reach her goal of 150 pounds. But she does have one complaint about McDonald's.

"If I could suggest anything to McDonald's, I would suggest the McMargarita," Morgan said. "Dine-in only, of course."

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Obituary

Reading obituaries makes me wonder what mine will say, who will go to my funeral, will people say I was a good person, ultimately that is important to me.

Here is the obituary from Nate's death on Six Feet Under, it still is a shock that he died on the tv show, followed by a review by the NY Times:

Nathaniel Samuel Fisher, Jr.


Nate Fisher died of natural causes on Saturday, May 21 at the age of 40. The Fisher family struggles with the profound loss of their beloved son and brother. Nate also leaves behind his wife Brenda Chenowith and his precious daughter Maya Fisher.

Nate was born January 8, 1965 to Nathaniel and Ruth Fisher in Los Angeles. His warmth, sense of humor, and adventurous spirit earned him friends everywhere he went. After graduating from Bonaventure High School and attending U.C. Santa Cruz, Nate traveled through Europe and later settled in Washington State, where he managed the largest organic food co-op in Seattle.

From a very young age, Nate searched to find beauty in the world. He had a deep respect for the earth and the people living on it, always striving for honesty in his relationships with others. Nate found an outlet for his natural gift of helping those in need when he joined his brother David to run the family's mortuary business in 2001.

A memorial Service will be held on Monday, May 23 at 2 p.m. at Fisher and Diaz 2302 W. 25th Street in Los Angeles. Private burial to follow.


On 'Six Feet Under,' Grief and Authenticity


For those of us who have been trying to come to terms with the death a week ago of Nate Fisher (Peter Krause), the hero of HBO's "Six Feet Under," last night's ambitious episode of the upper-middlebrow melodrama offered several alternative ways to grieve.

There were, of course, drugs. Nate's mother and sister - both panicked with misery as the episode opened - turned to pills and pot, respectively. But when Nate's pregnant widow, Brenda (Rachel Griffiths), was offered shots of edge-eroding vodka, she declined, saying, "I don't want to take the edge off."

Then there was the poetry: three kinds. First, the Republican lawyer who last week saw Claire (Lauren Ambrose) through her brother's sudden hospitalization made the case for pop music, as treacly ballads, including the Dixie Chicks' version of "Landslide," played in his car. "I love Top 40," the lawyer admitted. "I'm sorry. It just sounds so good sometimes."

Next came an extremely pretty, slightly anodyne poem by the 13th-century Sufi poet Rumi that Nate had requested be read graveside. It entreated the assembly, "Regarding him, say neither bad nor good."

"Mystical, maudlin'' stuff, said Brenda, whom Nate had dumped on his deathbed.

Finally, the episode took its title, "All Alone," from a lyric to the Nirvana song "All Apologies," which could be heard twice as Claire reflected on her brother. The first time, the music came with a memory: Nate in 1994, stoned, weeping at the suicide of Kurt Cobain, whom he called "too pure for this world." The music's reprise came later as Claire herself lay grieving, the acoustic version of the song back on the stereo, and then on the show's soundtrack, with Cobain's echolalic "All alone is all we are" repeating and repeating and repeating through the closing credits.

In choosing among these idioms of mourning, Lionel Trilling's great series of lectures, "Sincerity and Authenticity," published under that title in 1972, comes to mind. Sincerity - what Trilling calls "congruence between avowal and actual feeling"- once seemed (to the Romantic poets, x say) like an exalted state of existence that could be achieved only with conscientious attention to the heart.

But the ideal of sincerity has long ago been devalued, rendered commercial or quaint. Today, for example, it is associated with Coldplay, mewling God-and-country Republicans and weepie cable-television dramas like "Six Feet Under" that appeal mostly to women and gay men.

Authenticity, on the other hand, is regarded as rougher stuff, a man's job. Authenticity is gin to sincerity's chardonnay. (Look for it on "The Sopranos" and "Deadwood.") It suggests, as Trilling puts it, "a more strenuous moral experience" than does sincerity, as well as "a less acceptant and genial view of the social circumstances of life." Authenticity, in other words, is a confrontation not with the self, which its practitioners regard as elusive and false, but with death, horror, being, nothingness.

On "Six Feet Under" these days, authenticity's name is Brenda, the Woman Who Won't Take the Edge Off. On last night's episode, she looked with contempt on a gift bought by Maggie (Tina Holmes), Nate's recent concubine and the show's avatar of sincerity.

"What is this, some sort of Quaker thing?" she asked, continuing her challenge with profanity: you have sex with someone's husband till he dies, "and then you bring them a quiche?"

In a caustic, near-Jamesian dressing-down (the episode was written by Kate Robin), Brenda went on: "He certainly wasn't in love with you, even if he said he was. Nate could be very convincing that way. All he ever wanted was someone who could make him feel like he was a better man than he actually was. It could have been anyone."

The dutiful brother, David (Michael C. Hall), by contrast, has so far dodged the imperatives of sincerity and authenticity both; these ideals are the prerogatives of authors, and David has typically been too afraid of gay-bashing and too busy with make-work to assume real authority. On last night's episode, he was more scared than ever, abandoned by his handsome, straight older brother, whose presence - we see now - David had conceived as his hedge against mortality. With Nate dead, the specter of the menacing hooded hitchhiker from last season appeared again to David. He fell apart. At last, for solace, he admitted needing the ministrations of "smooth jazz," shorthand for the show's (and everyone's?) lowest form of aesthetic experience.

There were other outlets, speeches and bromides. The ones by Sarah (Patricia Clarkson) seemed especially fatuous, even manipulative; the one by crazy George (James Cromwell) - about Nate the idealist - seemed passably good.

But only Nate's colleague at the funeral home, Rico (Freddy Rodriguez), managed to get Nate's virtues just right. Like Fortinbras in "Hamlet," Rico told his wife that he intends to concentrate on bottom-line business now that the melancholy heir is out of the way. But even while scheming, he recognized that Nate in his dreaminess brought something to the art of death that was good for the enterprise and - who knows? - maybe even good for souls.

"He had a natural sense of what to say to people when they were grieving," Rico said. For this viewer, at least, that clicked. Nate may not have been able to face death and tell the truth, in the cold and unadorned way that Brenda idealizes, but he was able to speak to survivors from the heart.

When confronting the dead, as characters on this show often do, anything but an idiom of absolute authenticity ("all alone is all we are") sounds hollow. But in life's much more familiar experience - speaking to the bereaved - we could do worse than to be sincere.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

the Cure

My favorite Cure songs:

Close To Me
Halo
Birdmad Girl
Like Cockatoos
Siamese Twins
Primary
A Thousand Hours
Six Different Ways
Pictures of You
Untitled

I have seen the Cure maybe 10 times in my life, they are one of my all time favorite bands. And it is interesting that I have seen them in so many different "eras" if you will of my life- as a teenager, in colleger, with my first serious girlfriend, in Boston and in Chicago I have seen them, with my wife, with my best friends, it is interesting. the Cure are great, below is news that they are working on a new album finally.

The Cure Announce New Album Plans

The band that soundtracked a million broken hearts shows no signs of breaking up themselves. According to NME.com, last Friday at Spain's Benicassim Festival, the Cure announced that they plan to release a new album next year. Robert Smith let it slip during the band's two-hour set: "We want to start recording in October/November and get it out by my birthday next year, which I know is quite cheesy," he said. By the way, Smith turns 47 on April 21, 2006, which might make you feel old if seeing Francis Bean in full Olsen-wear and makeup didn't already do that for you.

Smith also said that he planned on working on material with former Siouxsie and the Banshees bassist and songwriter Steve Severin, who has released two solo albums, a film soundtrack, and a book of erotic poetry and prose among other writings since the Banshees called it quits in 1996. "I'm not sure though," he added. "We might kill each other!"

Monday, August 08, 2005

Swimming

I really don't like Mondays, it is always tough to go back to work after the fun and relaxation of the weekend. It remains very hot out here in Illinois, nineties most of the week which is furstrating. It is hard to stay outside for any length of time. I need to mow the lawn, have not in over a month as it has not gorwn much and it has been so hot. I have a 5K race Thursday night at 630pm, it is supposed to be 88 degrees! Aga took N & J to the beach over near Northwestern University. N & J are swimming around a little bit evidently. Staying cool and having a picnic while I am at work.

N & J really like swimming, they mention it every now and then. I never was much of a swimmer, I usually preferred to hold my breath as long as possible and just swim around the bottom of the pool. In oceans I walk out to the waves and then let them push me around back towards shore.

It is funny this weekend Nicki told me she dreams about Star Wars all the time, she said she doesn't want to! Julia told me that Boba Fett froze Han Solo in ice. My daughters have excellent sharp memories, I am constantly impressed by them.

OK I am off to get more cold water to drink.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Marino

Dan Marino, my favorite NFl football player of all time, is entering the Hall of Fame in Canton, Ohio today.

Besides meeting him, my fondest memory is watching him win a game in Indianapolis with 27 seconds left in the game. On 4th down at mid field, he thre a p ass complete to the 2 yard line. At that point, almost everyone at the game (Indy fans) started to leave. They knew Marino would win, and he did. Oronde Gadsen caught the next pass for the game winning score.

Leaving the stadium and seeing the shock on all the faces and the absolute quiet was something I never will forget.

I really do realize it is just sports, but when something you can't believe happens it really is emotional. It was like Getting to see first hand Marino's greatness after having watched him on television so many years.

Additionally, after he retired I learend of his charities and what an amazing family man he is, adopting children from China and paying for the best chidlren's hospital in southern Florida. Truly a good guy.

It was the best feeling from sports I ever experienced, the only other thing that rivaled it was when Damon homered in game 7 vs the Spankees and the Red Sox advanced to the World Series.

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Busy

Busy day, N, J and I got up early, then drove to Elmhurst to pick up a race shirt and bib number for the Elvis 5k race, which is next Saturday night. Then we drove to Lincoln park in Chicago, walked around a little bit and had lunch. We talked about going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and ultimately decided not to go. Instead we went back home and then on a long bike ride/walk to a local park. Then N & J went down the biggest slide there while I watched. I forgot to take a book this time so I just watched them. Then back home, bath and brushed teeth after a dinner of cheese macaroni for Nicki, scrambled egg and toast for Julia. Nicki at first did not want to eat her noodles but in the end she ate everything. While they were riding around on their bikes they were singing "Super Trooper" by Abba and Julia did the dance move with her arm showing the number one at that part of the song.

Shucks Red Sox blew a game in the ninth inning tonight, but it is ok since the Spankees also lost.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Fair

Going to the fair at Saint Zachary's in Des Plaines tonight. I love all the differenet smells and sights at a fair, the smells of all of the bbq food and of course the popcorn are wonderful. All of the kids on the rides and the parents trying to win prizes for their children are fun to watch as well.


There are all sorts of rides, games of chance and skill, bbq food, and a raffle to win a new car. N & J loved the fair last year and were continuously talking about it yesterday.

I have some oil stains on the driveway that I cannot remove, powdered tide and some solution bought at carRx both did not do the trick yet.

Tomorrow Aga has some people coming by to clean the house most of the day so I was told I need to take N&J out by 9am, maybe I will take them to Chicago depending on the weather after breakfast.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Laughter

We went to Rainforest Cafe last night and had the luck of sitting next to one of the fishtanks, there were really colorful yellow and purple fish swimming around. Behind Julia there were three gorillas. Nicki ate hamburgers and fries, Julia had cheese pizza. Aga had a turkey wrap and I had a bbq cheeseburger.

At Rainforest Cafe, there is a pseudo "rainstorm" with thunder and lightning and also the gorillas make noises and move around every so often. Every time the storm started, Julia would grab my hand, it was cute. And she would say "thunderstorm is coming Daddy, big thunderstorm!!!"

I forget what I was doing or saying, but both Nicki and Julia were laughing a lot. Then in the Boston Globe, there was this article (see below) about laughter as it impacts children. I like to think N & J laugh a lot, at least they do with me, they think they have a "silly Daddy".

:)

Tonight Aga is putting more woodchips around the plants in the front yard. Either tonight or tomorrow after my work we will go to the fair at Saint Zachary's (girls school and our church). There are all kinds of attractions such as rides, bbq, raffle tickets, and a game where I can win stuffed animals for the girls if I throw a ball through a hole. I did this last year and won N & J stuffed animal---wait for it---SNAKES. They picked these out, one is red and one is white with black spots.

Here is that article:

Laughing now might help your children to be funny later
By Barbara F. Meltz, Globe Staff | August 4, 2005

''Knock, knock."

''Nobody."

''Nobody who?"

''Nobody home!"

If that doesn't make you chuckle, it's not because you're too dense to get a good joke. It's because a 4-year-old made it up. He thought it was hysterical.

Humor is an intensely personal experience, but for young children it is also developmental. What they experience as funny depends on their cognitive understanding and their ability to distort what they know. The typical 4-year-old can't grasp double meanings or word play, but he can mimic the pattern of knock-knock jokes. That alone can make him laugh.

Researchers may marvel at this ''pre-riddle" stage but parents mostly bemoan it. Who wants to hear the same un-funny joke repeated and repeated? Laugh anyway. If nothing else, it's important to encourage children to try again.

''Humor in children has been correlated with higher intelligence, creativity, sociability, empathy, self-esteem, and problem solving," says psychologist and humor researcher Louis Franzini of San Diego State University. Children with a good sense of humor tend to be well-liked by peers and by adults. Franzini, author of ''Kids Who Laugh, How to Develop Your Child's Sense of Humor" (Square One Press), calls laughter ''the legal high."

There's long been speculation about why human beings like to laugh, but it was only in 2003 that researchers discovered neurological evidence that the brain is wired to take pleasure from humor and laughter. That's good news for parents. It means that for your child to have a good sense of humor, the most important thing you can do is nurture and support it.

Pediatrician Mark Waltzman worked as a clown during college and uses humor to defuse children's fear at Children's Hospital, where he works in the emergency room. ''It has to be appropriate to the situation and the child, of course," he says, ''but if you can make a patient relax and be calm, everything goes more smoothly." With a young child, he'll often start by vigorously washing his hands and making bubbles with the soap. With a school-age child, he may begin an exam by asking, ''Are you married?" He's building on children's delight in incongruity. ''Having an adult ask such a silly question in such a serious place cracks them up," he says.

One of the nice things about laughter is that it can make you feel good even when you're by yourself. But it's even better when you make someone else laugh.

''There's a bonding process that occurs. You feel closer to someone you share a laugh with. That can happen as young as 12 months," says Paul McGhee, one of the nation's preeminent researchers on children's humor. A professional speaker, he is author of ''Understanding and Promoting the Development of Children's Humor" (Kendall/Hunt) and president of laughterremedy.com.

Don't confuse a baby's first laugh with humor, though. An early laugh is usually in response to a physical sensation such as tickling. ''It reflects pleasure but not humor. There's no thought process," says McGhee.


It's typically between 6 and 12 months that a baby begins to delight in a parent's or caregiver's unexpected actions. McGhee's favorite example is of a 7-month-old who laughed out loud because mom sucked on his bottle. The mother wasn't trying to be funny, she was checking to see if the nipple was clogged, but it violated the baby's understanding of what is supposed to be: babies suck on bottles, not mommies!

Without realizing it, most parents signal that something funny is about to happen. ''We have exaggerated ways of talking, or extreme facial expressions that say: 'This is silliness,' " says educational psychologist and humor researcher Doris Bergen, of Miami University of Ohio.

Some months after they react to incongruity, toddlers initiate it, first with clowning actions and then, at about 2 years, with words -- for instance, calling objects by the wrong name or substituting nonsense words into a song.

Twenty-five-month-old Lauren Geise of Arlington has been loving a game like this for six months, ever since parents Shannon and Jay first asked her, ''Who are you? Are you Elmo? Nooo! Are you Ernie? Noooo! Are you mommy? Noooooo! You are. . . Lauren!" Now she initiates the game. ''It's such a source of pleasure that we can use it as a diversion when she's on the verge of a meltdown," says Shannon.

As their understanding of language deepens at 4 and 5, Bergen says, their humor more and more reflects multiple meanings in words: covering the dog with a blanket and calling him a hot dog; telling a ''tall tale" about growing as tall as the ceiling and jumping over the house. From there, riddles and knock-knock jokes become the perfect showcase for the new-found skill with words.

At older ages, humor becomes more individualized and patterns are too complicated to predict. The best response from a parent at any stage is to share in a child's delight. Bergen says that if you ask a young child why something is funny, even when they don't understand the word play, the answer often is, ''Because it makes my mom or dad laugh."

''To want to please, to mutually enjoy, those are good things," she says. Bergen also urges adults to use humor as a way to teach resilience.

Rob Schneider and Laura Tully of Lexington have caught on to that with their son, Simon, 10. ''Little things can fluster him. He'll fly apart," says Schneider. On the other hand, he has a great sense of humor. At the movies recently, he wanted bite-size Snickers candies called Poppables. When he opened the bag, they popped out, all over the ground. Simon was on the verge of tears when Tully quipped, ''I guess that's why they call them Poppables!" Instead of crying, Simon laughed.

Since then, the incident has been a catch phrase in the family when Simon is on the verge of making too big a deal out of something.

Of course, there are times when parents and teachers understandably get annoyed or frustrated at silliness. Who's to say when one classmate's nonsense rhyme about boots (boots, hoots, moots, coots) will disrupt the entire class, or when one sibling's silliness about peas escalates into gales of laughter about pees and ruins dinner.

What parents find offensive in potty humor is what delights children. ''There's shock value," says Bergen. ''It breaks the boundaries of what they can say and do." The more we react and the stronger our reaction, the more delight they take.

Franzini frowns on punishing children for expressing humor, but that doesn't mean anything goes. As with any other inappropriate behavior, limits and consequences need to be clearly established. For instance, ''In our family, we don't make jokes that are cruel or hurt people's feelings." With potty humor, Franzini recommends saying, ''That may be funny with your friends, but it's not funny to adults."

It's not unusual for a riddle your child tells you to be one you loved at the same age. They have a habit of recycling, says Bergen. Keep that to yourself, though. When you tire of the same riddle, the best defense is a good offense. See if your child has heard any of these, which Bergen says are circulating today:

What days are the strongest? Saturday and Sunday. The rest are ''weak" days.

Who are the most overweight superheroes? Fat Man and Blobbin.

Why did the skeleton cross the road? No guts.

Why did the elephant take toilet paper to the party? Because he's a party pooper.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Bush Goes on Vacation...AGAIN

Bush poised to set vacationing record
Visits to Crawford outpacing Reagan

August 3, 2005

WACO, Texas -- President Bush is getting the kind of break most Americans can only dream of -- 33 days away from the office, loaded with vacation time.

The president departed yesterday for his longest stretch away from the White House, arriving at his Crawford ranch in the evening for five weeks of clearing brush, visiting with family and friends, and tending to some outside-the-Beltway politics. By historical standards, it is the longest presidential retreat in at least 36 years.

The August getaway is Bush's 49th trip to his cherished ranch since taking office and the 319th day that Bush has spent, entirely or partially, in Crawford -- nearly 20 percent of his presidency to date, according to Mark Knoller, a CBS Radio reporter known for keeping better records of the president's travel than the White House itself. Weekends at Camp David or at his parents' compound in Kennebunkport, Maine, bump up the proportion of Bush's time away from Washington even further.

Bush's long vacations are more than a curiosity: They play into diametrically opposite arguments about this leadership style. To critics and late-night comics, they symbolize a lackadaisical approach to the world's most important day job, an impression bolstered by Bush's two-hour midday exercise sessions and his disinclination to work nights or weekends. The more vociferous among Bush's foes have noted that he spent a month at the ranch shortly before the 9/11 attacks, when critics assert he should have been more attentive to warning signs.

''I'm looking forward to getting down there and just kind of settling in," Bush told reporters from Texas newspapers during a Monday interview at the White House.

Just as Bush has made these August trips a regular feature of his presidency, so, too, have Democrats made a tradition of needling him about them. This year, opposition politicians are tying his departure from Washington to the CIA leak case that has swept up his top adviser, Karl Rove.

Until now, probably no modern president was a more famous vacationer than Ronald Reagan. According to an Associated Press count, Reagan spent all or part of 335 days at his Santa Barbara ranch over his eight-year presidency -- a total that Bush will surpass this month in Crawford with 3 1/2 years left in his second term.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Six Feet Under

Nate Fisher is dead I can hardly believe it. Besides "Twin Peaks", this is my most favorite tv show. Nate was my favorite character up until this season where he started bothering me. It would have all been so much better if he had been able to sell the funeral home to his brother David and roll back to Seattle.

What will happen to Mia now? Will Brenda keep her I wonder.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Bauhaus

My favorite Bauhaus songs are:

Hope
Burning from the Inside
Hollow Hills
Stigmata Martyr
Mask
Crowds
Nerves

Good news, sounds like they are going to make a new album and go on tour. I really love Peter Murphy,he reminds me so much of Bowie. I have seen about all of his tours in the usa since I discovered him. Aga and I saw Bauhaus on their last reunion tour in 1998.


Bauhaus Considering New Album

Zach Vowell reports:
Reunions seem to be a dime a dozen these days. And as great as the Pixies and Dinosaur Jr. tours have been to witness, most bands aren't too interested in mustering up the energy to record together again. Or maybe it's just bad memories (e.g., Frank Black vs. Kim Deal, J Mascis vs. Lou Barlow). Whatever the case, the legendeary goth quartet Bauhaus is reportedly trying to go that extra mile by reforming for a tour and a new album, since, you know, they already did that whole reunion thing seven years ago in 1998. According to BBC 6, frontman Peter Murphy said, "I've actually been working on reforming the band for the last year. It's come to the point now that we are going to tour here [in the UK] in the winter and do a world tour and an album."

A new album would be the first since Burning from the Inside in 1983, which lacked Murphy's presence on much of the LP (due to a serious illness) and foreshadowed the other members' work as Love and Rockets. And despite those long years, you may recall that all this doesn't come completely out of nowhere, as Bauhaus reunited as recent as this year for the Coachella festival in April.

* Bauhaus: http://www.bauhausmusik.com/