Sunday, July 31, 2005

Cool

While N & J had breakfast(waffles with grape jelly for Julia, plain waffles for Nicki) I ran on the treadmill and watched music videos on VH1- two things:

1. they were at Lollapalooza though for some poor reason, they highlighted cake and liz phair, two groups that Brian and I SKIPPED BECAUSE THEY ARE TERRIBLE. (we had the misfortune of seieng cake with cheap trick years ago and were complety underwhelmed by Cake- they suck to be honest)

2. Gwen Stefani's song and video "Cool" really is awesome. I know very little about Gwen Stefani except that she was in No Doubt and Roley and Brian like her music. I downloaded the song "Cool" from iTunes. The girls and I really like it and are dancing around to it today.

In the morning N & J asked to watch A-teens and then ABBA videos- this morning they were singing "Mamma Mia" and "Super Trooper" in bed at like 5 am- Aga was getting ready for work and they were singing "Mama Mia", then I heard Nicki say "wait, wait Julia- let's sing Super Trooper" and then later today Nicki told me "my favorite part in that song is when they sing 'feelin like a number one'". I need to get these girls iPods someday. Maybe when they are 5 (LOL!!!)

It is kinda hot out- we went grocery shopping again and also to the "baby park"- the girls kept coming back to me to drink more water and eventually they clamored to go home as it was "too hot outside".

I managed to see the episode of Six Feet Under from last week and I totally agree with Brian about Brenda. Nate has gone from being my absolute favorite character to someone that I would not like if I knew him (if he existed in reality and not an hbo show). I don't understand why he got married to Brenda if he is going to be unfaithful, what is the point in that?

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Pizza

We all went out for pizza last night. I love pepperoni and onion.

Today Aga is back at work after her vacation, N&J and I have had breakfast, visited the rec plex, run on the treadmill, and gone to check out the new refurbished "duck park". Lunch time soon, then nap time.

The weather is not too hot today, now we are playing in the backyard.

Friday, July 29, 2005

Jungle Gyms

My daughters love jungle gyms. Last night was fun, they are fearless about heights unlike me. There is a jungle gym at one of the parks near our house. N & J kept climbing up a ladder to the highest slide and going down it. Every time they were at the top, they would pause, yell to me and then wave. It was cute. They had absolutely no interest in doing anything else- no swings this time.Then we took a small walk over to a baseball field so Julia could run the bases. She even asked questions about the pitcher's mound. Julia keeps asking me to try and get her another Luke toy figure(Star Wars). I explained that they do not sell them anymore, also Julia managed to find one of the star wars spaceships that had been lost back in June before they went to Poland. She said it was under a pillow on the rocking chair.

What I found hilarious is that Julia can now open and close her car door. She no longer waits for Nicole to get out of the car next to the door I opened, but instead she opens her own door, climbs out of the car, closes the door, and then runs over to me, and every time she says "I did it by myself".

the other thing I am noticing aside from their obvious personality differences (Julia ia super confident and fearless, Nicki is shy and artistic), is that Nicki is such a girly girl. They dressed themselves after playing in the backyard to go out after dinner and Nicki put on a sundress and wore her white slip-on sneakers. Julia wore red shorts that said "lifeguard" on the back, and a red t-shirt with ladybugs all over it, and her blue sneakers. Nicki also carried her pink blanket and one of her dolls into the car, saying she might need them for later if she got tired.

They are not entirely used to the 7 hour time loss they are experiencing. Whereas Wednesday night they both were up and rearing to go at 4am, this morning Julia stayed asleep and only Nicki woke up at 4am, she stayed next to me in bed and was pretty quiet. When the sun rose at about 5, 515am I estimate, Nicki was saying, "Is it daytime yet, is it time to get up?" When Daddy gets out of bed, it is time to get up. :)

I want to get a Mac Mini but the cheapest one is $500, I think the girls would love it and be able to actually use our home computer. The Mac Mini would make the Dell obsolete- we could use the keyboard, mouse, and monitor, just plug the Mac Mini in and go to work!

I am reading two books at the moment- finishing "Trip to the Stars" and reading (gasp) the new Harry Potter novel. When they are done I think I will read something more deep.

This weekend is my first weekend with the girls, so I keep asking them what they want to do- they keep saying they want to go to the "fireman restaurant"- Grandma Sally's in Des Plaines- it is a cool place owned by a retired fireman, it is excellent for breakfast. Julia always has scrambled egg, orange slices, and some bacon. Nicki has bacon and pancakes. I alternate between omelettes and wheat toast, and bacon and eggs. Other than that, the weather is supposed to be in the nineties again, I would like to drive to Chicago and take them to the Shedd Aquarium but I am not sure yet. Playing in the backyard and at local parks might be just fine.

Roley and Brian got tickets to see the NYY play the Chicago White Sox August 19th, I wanted to go but it is my 10th wedding anniversary so I know that is a no-go!

-CW

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Family

Aga, Nicki and Julia are back in Des Plaines finally!

:)

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Matt Clement Update

Red Sox Medical Director Dr. Thomas Gill tonight issued the following statement regarding the condition of Red Sox pitcher Matt Clement.

“I have spoken with Matt and his doctors in Florida,” said Gill. “Matt himself never lost consciousness and is in good spirits. The results of his CAT scan were negative. He appears to be doing well, but will stay in the hospital overnight for precautionary purposes, and will be re-evaluated in the morning.”

By Gordon Edes, Globe Staff | July 27, 2005

ST. PETERSBURG, Fla. -- Mike Reilly, who has been a major league umpire for 28 years, was crouched behind Red Sox catcher Jason Varitek when Matt Clement, who was pitching from the stretch because the Tampa Bay Devil Rays had two men on base, threw the 38th and final pitch he would deliver last night. Carl Crawford, Tampa Bay's lithe and muscular left fielder poised in the lefthanded batter's box, whipped his bat through the strike zone, and sent a line drive hurtling toward Clement.

''The crack of the bat was loud," Reilly said. ''The sound of the ball hitting his head was just as loud."

Clement fell to the ground, clutching his right ear as he rolled onto his left side, then didn't move. As medical personnel and players from both teams rushed to the mound, Bill Mueller, the Sox third baseman who has been one of Clement's closest friends since they shared Bible study as teammates on the Cubs, dropped to one knee near the front of the mound, his head bowed in prayer.

The ball? It had caromed all the way into short left field, where it was retrieved by Manny Ramirez, the Sox left fielder.

''One part of me," said Sox manager Terry Francona, ''wanted to be at the mound in a second. But there was another part of me that didn't.

''I was very relieved when he was coherent and speaking. He seemed to be aware of his surroundings. You go from one second caring about getting an out to the other where you're caring only about him."

Manny Delcarmen, the kid from Hyde Park taking in his first game as a big leaguer, watched the unfolding scene with disbelieving eyes. ''That was tough to see," he said, ''him being down and hoping he'd get up."

During the stoppage in play, Sox pitcher Tim Wakefield, who was watching on TV in the clubhouse, retrieved Clement's cellphone from his locker and found the number to Clement's wife, Heather, who was watching on TV with the couple's 4-year-old son, Mattix, back in Boston. Francona came back to the clubhouse and called her.

''That's the kind of team this is," Wakefield said. ''We care about each other. I hope someone would do the same for me."

Varitek, the captain of this team and the man Clement has repeatedly credited for guiding him through what has been his most successful season in the major leagues, grabbed Clement's hand as the pitcher, eyes open but his head immobolized, was lifted onto a stretcher.

Of course, Varitek said, he had a flashback.

''All of us have been through Bryce Florie," Varitek said. ''You can't help not to [think of that]."

Florie was the Red Sox pitcher who five years ago, on Sept. 8, 2000, in Fenway Park, was struck flush in the face by a line drive hit by Ryan Thompson, a reserve outfielder on the New York Yankees. The force of that blow shattered bones in Florie's face and caused severe damage to his right eye. Even after multiple surgeries, Florie never regained full vision in his eye and did not pitch in the major leagues after the 2001 season.

Imagine the relief, then, when some of Clement's teammates, Varitek included, gathered in a trainer's room while physical therapist Chris Correnti placed a call to the pitcher, who was being held overnight at nearby Bayfront Medical Center, less than a half-mile away.

''[Kevin] Millar had the best line," umpire Reilly said. ''He said if the ball had hit him in the head it would have gone out of the stadium."

Dr. Thomas Gill, the team's medical director monitoring the situation in Boston, reported that a CAT scan performed on Clement had come back negative. ''Matt never lost consciousness and is in good spirits," Gill said. ''He appears to be doing well, but will stay in the hospital overnight for precautionary purposes, and will be reevaluated in the morning."

Clement, who has rarely missed a start in his big-league career, making 30 or more in each of his first six seasons, may miss a turn. It's possible he won't, despite the terror of the moment.

The Sox' bigger loss came in the top of the same inning, the third, in which Clement was struck, as Red Sox outfielder Trot Nixon strained an oblique (side) muscle taking a big swing and miss. Nixon said he hoped to avoid going on the disabled list, but strained obliques are one of the most nagging injuries a ballplayer can have. ''Maybe it will hang around the rest of the year," he conceded. ''But hopefully I can play through it."

Somehow, on a night they feared for their All-Star pitcher and lost their starting right fielder, the Sox endured and won the game, 10-9. Varitek hit a home run to draw them within a run in the ninth. Millar and John Olerud singled, and Mueller stroked a double in the right-field corner that scored the tying run. Olerud, running with screws in his surgically-repaired ankle, was cut down at the plate, as third base coach Dale Sveum, mindful that the Sox had run out of pitchers in the bullpen (Mike Timlin was unavailable and Bronson Arroyo would have been next), went for the win when the throw went over the first cutoff man.

''That's the world I live in," muttered Sveum about the slowest man on the team carrying its hopes in that situation.

But in the end, it was Johnny Damon's world. He made a leaping, game-saving catch in the bottom of the ninth, then hit the first pitch of the 10th for the go-ahead run.

Varitek doubled home another, which proved to be the winner in what the Sox captain conceded was one of the most emotional games in which he has ever played.

''It's so easy to say I'm proud of this team," Francona said. ''But tonight nothing came easy. Guys gave more tonight than they have."

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Matt Clement Hurt

Say a prayer:

ST. PETERSBURG, Fla. -- Boston Red Sox pitcher Matt Clement was hit in the right side of the head by Carl Crawford's line drive Tuesday night and carried from the field on a stretcher.

Clement remained on the ground and barely moved for about five minutes before he was lifted onto a stretcher and immobilized with a neck brace. Replays showed the force of Crawford's liner knocked the All-Star pitcher completely off his feet.

The ball caromed off the back of Clement's head, just behind his right ear, into short left field for an RBI single. Concerned teammates gathered around the fallen pitcher as medical personnel attended to him on the mound. The crowd cheered as he was carried off, but his arms remained strapped against his chest.

Discovery

Space shuttle Discovery just took off at 9:39 am central time!

Monday, July 25, 2005

Lance

All right, I am not into bike riding, or "cycling", but shucks, mad props to Lance Armstrong for winning his seventh consecutive Tour de France especially after being diagnosed with cancer years ago.

"Whipsnade"

We are only young, but we style our future with a cattle gun
We are idle rich
so we smile for tomorrow with a bitch of an itch
Cause when the fire light shocks like a cop shop pyre
we'll jack the politics for premonition and fire
and we'll move like Nuryev at night

Coast to coast
Side to side
Shines the light of fine enlightened minds
Coast to coast

We are only young
but we style out future in the shadow of guns
We are not idle rich
so we smile for tomorrow with a bitch of an itch
cause when the stylized kick of the filmstar whip,
cracks down on the millions, cracks the kids on the hips
we'll be moving like Nuryev at night

Coast to coast
Side to side
shines the light of fine enlightened minds
Coast to coast
Side to side
feel the steel that shines outside the blinds
Coast to coast
Side to side
blades engraved with babies' names, while pylons hide the suicides
Coast to coast
Side to side
Shines the light of fine enlightened minds
Coast to coast
Side to side
feel the steel that shines outside the blinds
Coast to coast
Side to side
blades engraved with babies' names,
While pylons hide the suicides...................

Exhausted

This weekend and all the sun wore me out. I am relaxing at home tonight, will follow the red sox game and then go to bed.

I will say this, the arcade fire are great, and I highly recommend their cd entitled "Funeral".

-CW

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Lolapalooza Day Two

Well it was 120 degrees today with the heat index I had about 7 waters/vitamin waters and one coke today.

Kasabian 130-230 I would give a 7

Louis XIV 230-330 a 4

Satellite Party 330-430 very disappointing 2

Arcade Fire 530-630 wow 10

The Killers 730-830 another 10 fave song was Smile Like You Mean It

Death Cab For Cutie 830-845 only stayed for about 1 and a half songs, weak opening no score as we left

Heard a lil bit of Soulive, Ben Kweller, Spoon, and the Dandy Warhols, and Widespread Panic. None impressed me except Soulive.

I got a cool Pixies t shirt and an orange beach towel.

It is such a relief to be at home, have a shower, a gatorade, and relax in the airconditioning.

That was a lot of music and sun this morning, I burned the top of my head I think, it hurts a bit.

They had nothing alcoholic except beer(which I never drink, can't stand it) and pina coladas(too expensive) that coupled with the extreme heat meant I stuck to ice waters and those vitamin waters. The vitamin waters are kind of like gatorade- my favorite was called revive, I also liked the vitamin c orange drink.

I'm off to bed with the baby unicorn(Nicki) and "baby daddy chris hippo"(Julia).

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Lollapalooza Day One

A wonderful day for music, and not as hot as it has been in Chicago. The festival was at Grant Park, right where I finished the Chicago Marathon so it brought back lots of positive memories for me.

Here are the performers Brian and I saw today with a score (out of a possible 10):

The Warlocks 1230-130 (6)
Kaiser Chiefs 230-330 (8)
Dashboard Confessional 330-430 (3)
the Bravery 430-530 (6)
Billy Idol 530-630 (9)
the Black Keys (630-645) we left early and got food and more vitamin water (5)
Pixies 730-845 (a 10!) they played all their classics- debaser, monkeys gone to heaven,gigantic, hey, number 13, where is my mind, caribou, cactus,i bleed, wave of mutilation. And they are from Boston so you know they're good!

We skipped Weezer and checked out a really cool dj for a while before getting back on the subway and rolling home- his name was Mark Farina and he was really mixing up some great dance music.

We saw bits of the Redwalls, brian jonestown massacre, and primus as well.

Day two is tomorrow- excited about the killers, kasabian, louis xiv, satellite party,arcade fire, and might stay to hear death cab for cutie but might not as have to get up early for work Monday morning!

Drank something called "replenish" vitamin water and it tasted like grape coolade, it was good, also had some yummy corn on the cob and a boneless bbq pork sandwich.

Back home now and going to check out espn for baseball highlights (red sox won! 3-0 varitek and manny homered) and then go to sleep.

Good night!

Friday, July 22, 2005

Victory!

Red Sox won 6-5 last night, Manny homered in the top of the ninth. The seats were pretty good, they ended up being box seats in between third base and left field, so I had had great views of Bill Mueller at third and Manny in left. After 6 innings, Brian and I walked around the park, we spent the rest of the game in centerfield right behind Johnny Damon, also got to watch Schilling warm up and come into the game. There were quite a few Boston fans at the game, I wore my Varitek t-shirt and Boston fans would say "nice shirt" sometimes. All in all a great game, it was 4-1 Chicago for a while, then 5-4 Red Sox, then 5-5 after 8, then Manny hit the homerun and the final was 6-5. Clement pitched for Boston and did ok, he struck out some of the big Chicago hitters and worked himself out of trouble.

Another good thing was Thursday at the White Sox stadium is $1 hotdogs. I am going to the game again tonight, it should be another great game.

I am really glad it is Friday- Lollapalooza concerts all weekend!

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Polar Bears

Perhaps my most favorite of all creatures is the polar bear. There is one at the Lincoln Park Zoo, near where I used to live in Chicago, he enjoys swimming around and just relaxing outside. I love watching him. Below is a plethora of info for your education and enjoyment:

Polar Bear
Ursus maritimus




Only recently in evolutionary time have bears adapted to life on arctic seas, but these great creatures have mastered the water and ice environment superbly. Over time they evolved a luxuriant white coat and layer of blubber for camouflage and warmth. Oversize feet serve as paddles for extensive swimming and spread their weight, helping this largest of modern carnivores (excepting Orcas) to traverse ice too thin to support a person.

During the Ice Age, seals adapted to life in icy northern seas. Their need to breathe and reproduce at the surface put a rich year-around food resource within reach of a population of brown bears that began to live more and more out on the ice. Natural selection favored those bears best able to catch seals, and they became more thoroughly carnivorous than other bears. By 100,000 years ago they had evolved into something like the polar bear of today. Although polar and brown bears now look and act rather differently, their genetic closeness is demonstrated by matings in zoos that produce fertile offspring.

Polar bears' range is circumpolar. A few have been spotted close to the pole, but heavy perennial ice there provides poor seal hunting, so most are found further south where the ice is thinner and less continuous.
Formerly it was believed that polar bears migrated freely all across the Arctic, but modern research suggests that there are actually a number of more or less distinct populations. Russian and American are investigating the possibility that Beringian bears comprise a single group which during winter is distributed from Wrangel Island south along the Asian coast and in the central Bering Sea as far as St. Mathew Island. In summer, those wintering in the Bering Sea return to the north with the retreat of pack ice. Beringian bears seldom mingle with another population found in the Beaufort Sea east of Pt. Barrow, Alaska.

In 1981 the IUCN Polar Bear Specialist Group agreed that the world population was between 20,000 and 40,000. As of 1988 the most accepted estimate for the Alaska populations was 3,000-5,000.

The "Arctic Ring of Life" is the name given by Soviet biologist Savva Uspenski to the system of polynyas, or lakes of open water in pack ice, that persist through the winter. Wind, upwellings and currents along some shores or downwind from islands bring nutrients to the surface here, and keep the sea ice from coalescing. The coastal shear zone between shore- fast ice and the moving pack is also rich for similar reasons. These areas are vital to marine mammals and migrating birds, and to polar bears, which often hunt in such places.
Ringed seals are the bears' principal prey. They also hunt bearded seals and occasionally the more dangerous walrus. Normally solitary hunters, they have an impressive range of strategies, learn quickly, and show immense patience, power and speed. It has been calculated that their caloric needs require one ringed seal every six and a half days. Arctic foxes live on the sea ice in winter by scavenging polar bear kills.

Since their prey is available year-round, polar bears do not hibernate like brown bears, except pregnant females, who spend about five months in dens to give birth to their cubs. The female must greatly increase her weight, mostly in fat, to carry off a successful pregnancy and denning. The cubs, usually two, are born in December or January, weighing only 0.5 to 0.9 kilograms (one to one and a half pounds). By the time the family breaks out of the den in March or April the cubs weigh 10-15 kilograms (25-30 pounds). Cubs generally remain with their mother for two and a half years. Females are therefore able to bear young only every three years. This low rate of reproduction is balanced by a long life and low rates of natural mortality.

Moving in autumn from drifting ice to suitable denning sites requires a remarkable and little understood navigational ability. An important denning area for the Beringia population is on Wrangel Island. Denning also occurs on the northeastern coast of Alaska, although a majority of the Beaufort population dens on sea ice.

About 4,000 years ago the ancestors of present day Eskimos moved into an ecological niche not yet occupied by people: hunting marine mammals of the northern seas. Once they learned this life-style they spread quickly along Arctic coasts. They had discovered much the same niche as the polar bear and may even have learned from bears, for their seal hunting methods are strikingly similar.
Polar bears have a preeminent place in Eskimo cultural and spiritual life. The spiritual guardians of shamans were usually polar bears, and it was believed that the spirits of people and bears sometimes interchanged. Killing a bear was a major event, requiring ceremonial propitiation of its spirit. Sometimes it was the bear who killed the person, for the predator-prey relationship went both ways.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Rain and Steaks

Well it finally rained for about the second time in the last 6 weeks so I did not have to water the plants. I had dethawed a steak this morning and decided to grill it- did not as long as usual but it turned out ok. Now it is again unbelievably humid out. I love thunderstorms, there certainly have not been many to enjoy this summer.

I need to go to Mortons again, that is my favorite stakhouse out here in Chicago, great place: steaks,caesar salads, potatoes,and of course steaks. Lobster tails anyone? Aga loves it too so we will probably go there for our 10th wedding anniversary, August 19th.

It's funny to hear how upset Julia is that she has not seen all of the new Star Wars figures I bought her and Nicki at Burger King! Though we all know how much I love the fact that my girls love Star Wars and the Red Sox. Daddy's girls definitely!!!

I am on the fence about registering for the Chicago Half Marathon is September, I am doing the Elvis 5K race in August so that should be a blast, I am ready to see a few "Velvet Elvises" out there strutting their stuff!

-CW

Beam Me Up Scotty! (R.I.P. JAMES DOOHAN)

LOS ANGELES, California (AP) -- James Doohan, the burly chief engineer of the Starship Enterprise in the original "Star Trek" TV series and motion pictures who responded to the command "Beam me up, Scotty," died early Wednesday. He was 85.

Doohan died at 5:30 a.m. (1330 GMT) at his Redmond, Washington, home with his wife of 28 years, Wende, at his side, Los Angeles agent and longtime friend Steve Stevens said. The cause of death was pneumonia and Alzheimer's disease, he said.

The Canadian-born Doohan was enjoying a busy career as a character actor when he auditioned for a role as an engineer in a new space adventure on NBC in 1966.
A master of dialects from his early years in radio, he tried seven different accents.

"The producers asked me which one I preferred," Doohan recalled 30 years later. "I believed the Scot voice was the most commanding. So I told them, 'If this character is going to be an engineer, you'd better make him a Scotsman.' "

The series, which starred William Shatner as Capt. James T. Kirk and Leonard Nimoy as the enigmatic Mr. Spock, attracted an enthusiastic following of science fiction fans, especially among teenagers and children, but not enough ratings power. NBC canceled it after three seasons.

When the series ended in 1969, Doohan found himself typecast as Montgomery Scott, the canny engineer with a burr in his voice. In 1973, he complained to his dentist, who advised him: "Jimmy, you're going to be Scotty long after you're dead. If I were you, I'd go with the flow."

"I took his advice," said Doohan, "and since then everything's been just lovely."

Merriment

Lots of upcoming! Red Sox/White Sox tomorrow and Friday evenings. Clement pitching tomorrow for Boston and Wakefield Friday. Saturday and Sunday- Lollapalooza concert, excited about Death Cab for Cutie, the Killers, the Pixies, and a little bit for Billy Idol as well.

Monday going downtown with Brian to have dinner and go to the HotHouse to see Yoko Noge Jazz Me Blues again.

Cleaned the house pretty thoroughly Monday as the family is returning from Poland, all looks good. Only two plants kinda died while I was on duty watering them! (It could have been worse with the constant temperatures in the nineties).

Yesterday after work I ran 4 miles, followed the Red Sox game on the interent, and ran the dishwasher. Listened to Mahler's 4th symphony again in bed and read a bit.

Supposedly it is going to rain tonight, I am crossing my fingers.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Mahler

Symphony #2 is my favorite, though I have started listening to Symphony #4 quite a bit recently and am enjoying it.

Below is some information about Mahler:

Gustav Mahler (July 7, 1860–May 18, 1911) was a Bohemian-Austrian composer and conductor.

Mahler was best known in his time as one of the leading conductors of his day, but is now remembered as an important post-romantic composer, particularly for his symphonies and his symphonic song cycle, Das Lied von der Erde (The Song of the Earth), which was the peak of his vocal writing. At a length of approximately 95 minutes, his third symphony is one of the longest symphonies ever performed; it is currently the longest of all symphonies in the general symphonic repertoire.



Biography
Mahler was born into a Jewish family in Kaliste, Bohemia. His parents moved to Jihlava, Moravia, where Mahler spent his childhood, in the first year of his life. Having noticed the boy's talent at an early age, his parents arranged piano lessons for him when he was six years old. In 1875, Mahler, then fifteen, was admitted to the Vienna Conservatoire where he studied piano under Julius Epstein. Three years later, Mahler attended Vienna University, where Anton Bruckner was lecturing. While at the university, he worked as a music teacher and made his first major attempt at composition with Das klagende Lied; the opera, which he later turned into a cantata, was entered in a competition, in which he was ultimately unsuccessful.

In 1880, Mahler began his work as a conductor with a job at a summer theatre at Bad Hall; in the years that followed, he took posts at successively larger opera houses: Ljubljana in 1881, Olomouc in 1882, Kassel in 1884, Prague in 1885, Leipzig in 1886 and Budapest in 1888. In 1887, he took over conducting Richard Wagner's Ring cycle from an ill Arthur Nikisch, firmly establishing his reputation among critics and the public alike. The year after he completed Carl Maria von Weber's unfinished opera Die drei Pintos, the success of which brought Mahler significant fame and income. His first long-term post came at the Hamburg Opera in 1891, where he stayed until 1897. While there, he took summer vacations at Steinbach-am-Attersee in Upper Austria, during which he concentrated on composition, completing his first symphony and most of the song cycle Lieder aus "Des Knaben Wunderhorn" (The Youth's Magic Horn), set to a collection of folk poems of the same name.


Mahler conductingIn 1897, Mahler, then thirty-seven, was offered and accepted the directorship of the Vienna Opera, the most prestigious musical position in the Austrian Empire. He brought in his ten years there his fiery disposition, noted perfectionism, and inflexible will. While the works of the French composer Jules Massenet were in style when Mahler took over the Opera, by the time his time at the Opera was over, he had taught the public to revere the works of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Ludwig van Beethoven, and Christoph Willibald Gluck. He ran the Opera for nine months of the year, spending the rest composing, mainly at Maiernigg, where he had a small cottage on the Wörthersee. There he composed his fourth through eighth symphonies, the Rückert Lieder based on poems by Friedrich Rückert, the Kindertotenlieder (Songs on the Death of Children), and the last lied of the Lieder aus "Des Knaben Wunderhorn", entitled Der Tambourg'sell.

Shortly before his appointment to the Opera, Mahler converted from Judaism to Roman Catholicism, mainly due to his fears of anti-semitism, which was rampant in the city. Mahler became one of a generation of Jewish intellectuals who had lost their religious identity and taken root in the Austro-German culture they felt they were bound to be a part of. As the composer himself said, "I am thrice homeless: as a native of Bohemia in Austria, as an Austrian among Germans, and as a Jew throughout the world."

In 1902, Mahler married Alma Schindler (1879–1964), with whom he had two daughters, Anna (1904–1988), who later became a sculptor, and Maria Anna, (1902–1907) who died of either scarlet fever or diphtheria at the age of only five.

Mahler's stubborn obstinance in musical matters created several powerful enemies; he was also coming under increasingly virulent anti-semitic attacks, in 1907 becoming almost unbearable. His own music, which he had attempted to introduce while in Vienna, was also not very well received on the whole; while his fourth symphony was well received by some, it was not until the performance of his eighth in 1910 that he had any true public success with his music. (The pieces he wrote after that were not performed during his lifetime.) The death of his younger daughter left him grief-stricken; that same year he discovered he had heart disease (infective endocarditis). His eventual resignation from the Opera, in part forced by a largely anti-semitic press, was hardly unexpected. That year he received an offer to conduct the Metropolitan Opera in New York. He conducted a season there in 1908, only to be set aside in favor of Arturo Toscanini. The next year, he became the conductor of the newly formed New York Philharmonic Orchestra. He hoped to earn enough to be able to retire at the age of fifty to devote his efforts entirely to composing. At this time, he completed his Das Lied von der Erde (The Song of the Earth), and his ninth symphony, which would be his last completed work.

In the middle of a long concert season with the Philharmonic, during his last visit to America in February 1911, he fell seriously ill with a streptococcus infection and was taken to Paris, where a new serum had just recently been developed. However, Mahler's health took a turn for the worse, and was taken back to Vienna at his request. He died there from his infection on May 18, 1911, leaving his tenth symphony incomplete. He was buried, at his request, beside his daughter, in the Grinzinger Cemetery outside Vienna.

Music
Mahler was the last in a line of Viennese symphonists extending from the First Viennese School of Joseph Haydn, Mozart, Beethoven and Franz Schubert to Bruckner and Johannes Brahms; he also incorporated the ideas of Romantic composers like Robert Schumann and Felix Mendelssohn. The major influence on his work, however, was that of Richard Wagner, who was, as Mahler said, after Beethoven, the only composer to truly have "development" (see Sonata form and History of sonata form) in his music.

The spirit of the lied (German for song) constantly rests in his work. He followed Schubert and Schumann in developing the song cycle, but rather than write piano accompaniment, he orchestrated it instead. Lieder eines fahrenden Gesellen (Songs of a Wayfarer) is a set of four songs written as a rejected lover wandering alone along the earth; Mahler wrote the text himself, inspired by his unhappy love affair with a singer while conducting at Kassel.

Often, his works involved the spirit of Austrian song and dance. Keenly aware of the colourations of the orchestra, the composer filled his symphonies with flowing melodies and expressive harmonies, achieving bright tonal qualities using the clarity of his melodic lines. Among his other innovations are expressive use of combinations of instruments in both large and small scale, increased use of percussion, as well as combining voice and chorus in the symphony form, and extreme voice leading in his counterpoint. His orchestral style was based on counterpoint; two melodies would each start off the other seemingly simultaneously. Choosing clarity over a mass orgy of sound, he never left the principle of tonality, as composers following him, in particular, those of the Second Viennese School of Arnold Schoenberg, Alban Berg, and Anton Webern, would later do.

Mahler combined the ideas of Romanticism, including the use of program music, and the use of song melodies in symphonic works, with the resources which the development of the symphony orchestra had made possible. The result was to extend, and eventually break, the understanding of symphonic form, as he searched for ways to expand his music. He stated that a symphony should be an "entire world". As a result, he met with difficulties in presenting his works, and would continually revise the details of his orchestration until he was satisfied with the effect.

His symphonies are generally divided into three periods. The first, dominated by his reading of the Wunderhorn poems, and incorporating characteristic melodies from his song settings of them, includes his first four symphonies. His second period, including the next three symphonies, focuses on increasing severity of expression, including the Tragic symphony, whose hammer blows shocked Viennese audiences and inspired other composers. His last period is marked by increasing polyphony and includes his eighth, ninth, and unfinished tenth symphonies, as well as Das Lied von der Erde (The Song of the Earth).

Mahler was obsessed by Beethoven's legacy; he declared that all of his symphonies were "ninths", having the same impact and scale as Beethoven's famous Choral symphony. (Incidentally, Mahler was a firm believer in the curse of the ninth and was terrified of writing a ninth numbered symphony, so much that he referred to Das Lied von der Erde as a song cycle rather than number it as a symphony; the work can be considered to be both a song cycle and a symphony. However, Mahler still died after writing his ninth numbered symphony, leaving his tenth unfinished to be completed from his sketches and designs in the 1970s.)

Few composers can be said to have freely intermixed their work and their life so completely; in the manuscript of the tenth Symphony, there are notations to his wife Alma (who was, at the time, having an affair with Walter Gropius, her future husband after Mahler's death) as well as other autobiographical references. He was deeply spiritual and described his music in terms of nature very often. This resulted in his music being viewed as extremely emotional for a long time after his death. In addition to restlessly searching for ways of extending symphonic expression, he was also an ardent craftsman, which shows both in his meticulous working methods and careful planning, and in his studies of previous composers.


Legacy
Mahler's music had a pivotal role in what followed after his life. His compositions had a tremendous impact on Schoenberg, Berg and Webern immediately, as well as conductors Bruno Walter and Otto Klemperer, both of who worked with the composer, were helped by him in their careers, and who would eventually take his music to America, where it would influence Hollywood film composition. His music also influenced Erich Wolfgang Korngold and Richard Strauss, as well as the early symphonies of Havergal Brian.

As a conductor, his innovative methods and techniques survive to the present. He was famous for saying that "tradition is sloppiness", and requiring extensive rehearsals of works. This led to tensions between Mahler and his orchestras, even as those tentions produced finer performances than had been previously thought possible.

Mahler's difficulties in getting his works accepted led him to say "my time will come"; that time came in the mid 20th century. Advocated by both those who had known him, and by a generation of conductors including the American composer and conductor Leonard Bernstein, his works won over an audience hungry for the next wave of musical exploration. Soon, complete Mahler symphony cycles were recorded and his works became the defining pieces for many conductors.

In the late twentieth century, new musicological methods led to the extensive editing of his scores, leading to various attempts to complete the tenth symphony and improved version of the others. Well-known interpreters of Mahler's work today include Claudio Abbado, Pierre Boulez, Riccardo Chailly, Bernard Haitink, Jascha Horenstein, Zubin Mehta, Sir Simon Rattle, Markus Stenz, Michael Tilson Thomas and Benjamin Zander; Mahler's music continues to attract interest today.


Works

Symphonies
Symphony No. 1 in D major, "Titan" (1884–1888)
Symphony No. 2 in C minor, "Resurrection" (1888–1894)
Symphony No. 3 in D minor (1895–1896)
Symphony No. 4 in G major (1899–1901)
Symphony No. 5 in C-sharp minor (1901–1902)
Note: While the symphony begins in the advertised c-sharp minor, it should be noted that the composer himself wrote, in a letter to his publisher: "it is difficult to speak of a key for the whole symphony, and to avoid misunderstandings the key should best be omitted."
Symphony No. 6 in A minor, "Tragic" (1903–1904)
Symphony No. 7 in E minor, "Song of the Night" (1904–1905)
Symphony No. 8 in E-flat major, "Symphony of a Thousand" (1906)
Note: The subtitles for the seventh and eight symphonies were not by Mahler. The composer, in fact, strongly objected to the subtitle for the eighth symphony.
Symphony No. 9 in D major (1909–1910)
Symphony No. 10 in F-sharp minor (1910–1911), incomplete
Various completions by:
Adagio and Purgatorio prepared for performance by Ernst Krenek (1924)
Deryck Cooke (1960, 1964, 1976, 1989)
Joseph Wheeler (1948–1965)
Clinton Carpenter (1966)
Remo Mazzetti, Jr. (1989)
Rudolf Barshai (2000)
The duo of Nicola Samale and Giuseppe Mazzucca (2002)
Note: several prominent Mahler conductors refused to perform the completed tenth symphony for various reasons, most notably Bruno Walter and Leonard Bernstein.

Vocal works
Das klagende Lied, (1880)
Drei Lieder, three songs for tenor and piano, (1880)
Lieder und Gesänge aus der Jugendzeit, fourteen songs with piano accompaniment, (1880–1890)
Lieder eines fahrenden Gesellen (Songs of a Wayfarer), for voice with piano or orchestral accompaniment, (1883–1885)
Lieder aus "Des Knaben Wunderhorn" (The Youth's Magic Horn), for voice and orchestra, (1888–1896, two others 1899 and 1901)
Rückert Lieder, for voice with piano or orchestral accompaniment, (1901–1902)
Kindertotenlieder (Songs on the Death of Children), for voice and orchestra, (1901–1904)
Das Lied von der Erde (The Song of the Earth), song cycle-symphony (1907–1909)
Note: this work can be classified as both a symphony and a song cycle. Mahler avoided numbering it as a symphony due to his superstitious fear of the curse of the ninth

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Word Definitions

bivouac - a temporary encampment often in an unsheltered area

mischievous - playful in a naughty or teasing way

assuage - satisfy or appease

exiguity - scanty;meager

plethora - abundance

coitus - sexual union

lissom - easily bent;supple;limber

scion - a descendant or heir

verdant - green;unsophisticated;unripe in knowledge

avarice - greed

raucous - noisy

insouciant - nonchalant

puerile - juvenile,immature,childish

winsome - charming in a naive/childlike way

polyglot - speaking, writing, written in, or composed of several languages

umbrage - take offense/resentment; shadow or shade

facile - easy

intransigent - refusing to moderate a position, especially an extreme position; uncompromising

paucity - scarcity;dearth;smallness of number

fatuous - vacuously, smugly, and unconsciously foolish

inchoate - in an inital or early state

chimera - a fanciful mental illusion or fabrication

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Secrets

Why do people share secrets with the premise "just don't tell anyone", and then before you have a chance to respond, they blurt it out?

Maybe they just need to tell.

Yoko Noge and the Jazz Me Blues Band

Saw them at Hothouse in Chicago lat night- met John Watson, who played trombone as a member of the Count Basie Orchestra- he said they played the last show at the Tropicana Club in Las Vegas, at the end of the Strip.

There were about 30 people at the show, the band did 2 sets and were breaking and preparing a third though we didn't stick it out- tired and have to get up early for work.

What was most fascinating was that the diminutive Yoko Nuge (from Osaka), can really belt out some numbers! She had a very strong voice, and she tinkled the ivories like an old pro. The band was tight, and after each player did his solo, Yoko would murmur their name in her microphone, to scattered applause.

The Hothouse is a really cool place- very laidback, with lots of artwork on the walls and comfortable booths across and on either side of the stage.

The only tough thing was having to water the plants outside when I got home(TIRED)!

Monday, July 11, 2005

David Ortiz, Red Sox

David Ortiz, on the field and off, does not hide.

That's part of the reason the slugger suddenly has become the most popular player in baseball, part of the reason he'll be on national television tonight, displaying his power-perfect swing in the Home Run Derby. Two and a half seasons after he was not tendered a contract by the Minnesota Twins, Ortiz received more votes than any other player for tomorrow's All-Star Game, picking up 4,138,141, including more online tallies than anyone else.

It's why he is beloved. Ortiz isn't the enigma that Manny Ramirez is. He doesn't have the stoic, no-nonsense persona of Jason Varitek. He isn't confrontational and dramatic -- except in his flair for the game-winner -- like Curt Schilling. Ortiz is what he is.

The only question is what made him that way.

Because Ortiz isn't smiling now. He isn't grinning, isn't shaking. He's sitting, simply, and pain washes through his eyes. He's talking about his mother and about how, since the accident, nothing can get him down. Because nothing, he says, will ever be quite so hard.

Angela Rosa Arias was killed in a car accident in January of 2002. It was, absolutely, the most difficult moment in his life.

''At that point I have to be the stronger [person] in the family because, pretty much, my sister, my aunt, my uncles, my pop, pretty much everybody got hit really bad," Ortiz says. ''I had to act like, 'Hey, let's hang in there.' I got to take the heat. I lose my mother, that I love, the person that give me the most love ever. But I never quit. I act strong in that one moment that was terrible. But I've got my pain. I deal with the situation. After that, I don't think I have faced anything worse than that, anything more painful than that.

''That's why I see everything in light and happiness."

This isn't the Ortiz of the ballpark. This isn't the Ortiz of the commercials, the ones that show him gregarious and laughing. This is the other David Ortiz. The one that is his. The one he keeps inside.

''Life is a challenge," Ortiz said. ''Life is a challenge that you need. There's things in life that are going to throw you into the ground, but if you learn how to get up, that means you are not a quitter. That's the best that a human being can have, never quit. If you quit, if you are a quitter, you're giving up on your kids, your wife, your family, you're giving up on them."

He says he's never done that, never given up, though he came close after his mother died. He won't, he says, if he hasn't yet.

He has taken that pain and transformed it into joy. It has been subsumed into the old Ortiz, the one before he lost his mother and lost his job in Minnesota almost at the same time. It was the one that started before and blossomed after, once the sorrow became less acute and life got, well, good. Even in a city as notoriously tough on its talent as Boston, Ortiz stayed Ortiz.

''I don't think the environment has anything to do with his personality," said Terry Ryan, Ortiz's general manager with the Twins. ''If you go down to the Dominican, he's the same there. He's the same in Boston. He did the same in Appleton, Wis. He's always had a smile. He's got a flair about him. He's got a charismatic approach."

It isn't, of course, only his personality. Ortiz has done more than enough at the plate to satisfy the legions of Red Sox fans who adore him, more than a few of whom walk around with his name branded across their backs. Ortiz simply was transcendent in the playoffs last season, getting just the hit at just the time.

Ortiz effectively won the World Series for the Red Sox with his bat last season. And, just for that, he could be deified in Boston. In this town, his swings mean just as much as his smiles.

''If he stunk and he hit .150 and hit zero home runs and drove in nobody, people wouldn't have that," Varitek said. ''The fact [is] that he's very good at what he does -- extremely good, one of the best in the game -- and he has that very likeable persona. When you're mechanically sound, as he is, those slumps are short. That's what makes him so good."

He is good. With a batting average well over .300 for the second time in two seasons and another 40-home run year in his sights (.314, 21 HRs, 75 RBIs), Ortiz could be on his way to the award he says is his final step in getting everything from baseball.

A long time ago, when Ortiz was little, his father explained baseball to his son.

An escalator, he said. You rise with it, getting on when you reach the big leagues. Each step is an achievement -- playing well, making the All-Star team, winning a World Series. Ortiz says he has one step left: a Most Valuable Player award. It's possible.

For now, though, he'll have to settle for ''Most Popular."

''He went from being a good player to one of the elite hitters in the league," Red Sox manager Terry Francona said. ''And then you add on his infectious personality, his ability to smile. He has the quickest, warmest smile I've ever seen. He can make a person walk through that door -- he's never met before -- feel so comfortable. And that is a gift. You couple that with his ability, you have David Ortiz."

Ortiz sits, thinking quietly in a clubhouse normally filled with thumping rhythms. His father -- slightly shorter, slightly rounder -- is behind him, 20 yards away. Ortiz, still not smiling, considers his answer.

Is he ever not, well, him?

''Of course, as a human you get down," Ortiz said. ''Everything is not only happiness. Everything is not flowers and piece of cake. There's a lot of things in life that you see, that you have to face. That's life. But, otherwise, happiness."

And that, really, is David Ortiz.

Milestones

December 24,2001- Nicole crawled for the first time
December 29,2001- Nicole said her first words, "Da Da"
December 31,2001- Julia stood up by herself
January 1,2002-Nicole said "Mama"
November 2001- Both girls ate cereal, fruit, yougurt,vegetables for the first time
January 2002-Both girls had their first glass of juice(grapefruit,apple)
Julia wears her first pair of shoes(white with a brown teddy bear on the soles)
Nicole says "hey dada", Julia fake coughs.
Julia ate bits of bread,ice cream, and baked potato.
Nicole dances on the floor, Julia plays with a puzzle. Julia starts to crawl after Daddy when he returns home from work.
January 21,2002-Nicole smiled in her bed when told "goodnight I love you"
Julia has been practicing walking. Girls like being read Dr. Seuss "Hop on Pop" and "Green Eggs and Ham"
January 25,2002-Nicole has 2 bottom middle teeth.
January 31,2002-First time Nicole sleeps through the night 1030pm-530am
Frbruary 1,2002-Nicole sleeps throught the night again
Julia can now "give 5" (slap your hand "5" when you ask her) and also wave goodbye. Nicole is crawling around a lot with her two favorite toys(a plastic fish and a blue platic pretzel)
February 3,2002-Patriots win Super Bowl. N & J watched parts of the first quarter, Nicole sae Ty Law(Patriots) interception and touchdown.
February 17,2002-The girls ate a lot of new foods for the first time in their lives: chicken,turkey,and cheese macaroni. Julia stands up a lot and Nicole is crawling all over the place very quickly. Nicole is starting to grow and look taller and taller. Their new favorite books are about a mouse named "Maisy".
March 15,2002-Julia can walk-she walked today unassisted around the entire living room. Nicole has started to stand up on her own and is beginning to practice walking holding on to tables and such.
March 22,2002-Nicole stands up in palce often. Both girls learned how to say "Amen", putting their hands togteher. Julia has learned how to clap her hands.
March 30,2002- Both girls are now standing up often. Nicki stands up in her crib and watches her Dad shave. Nicki is curious about the new home computer, and likes to make videos and take pictures with the webcam.
April 6,2002-Both girls continue to stand up often. Nicole says "dada" a lot, Julia waves "byebye", Julia continues to practice her walking. Julia now "shares" her toys a lot-handing them to parents and then later wanting them back.
April 30,2002-Julia took many steps unassisted at 615am. The girls play together today, pulling books from shelves and looking at the covers. Today they tasted chocolate ice cream for the first time and both loved it of course.
May 7,2002- Girls first birthday.
May 11,2002-Girls will hold up one finger when asked how old they are.
May 12-Julia took 2 steps all by herself. Both girls had a chocolate chip cookie after dinne(first cookie)
May 13-Julia is now walking around often on her own, she walked down the hallway in the house, she can take more than 10 steps by herself.
May 24,2002-Julia says "peas" for please, Nicki uses a pushcart to practice her walking. Julia built a tower using three rings.
June 1,2002-Nicki can say "baby", Julia is really walking very well. Nicki pats parents backs with her hand. Julia hugged Nicki today, they both feed themselves cheese and banana slices. Julia eats some mango slices but Nicki does not care for them.
June 3-Nicki says "baba" (byebye) when she waves her hand, both girls went and had their first official haircutes today. Nicki pushed the pushcart when walking, using just one hand. Nicki slept on her own last night for the fourth time. She resists sleep, seems to have nightmares, sometime she screams so much and gets so worked up that she vomits, then she finally calms down(she is exhausted) and falls asleep.
June 12-Nicki goers to bed at 8pm wakes up briefly at 11pm and again at 4am. Then between 530-615am she wakes up for good. Julia sleeps from 715pm until 5,530am. Nicki stopped vomiting at night. The girls are sometimes sharing toys with each other. This weekend we all played in the backyard. Both girls wave and say "buh buh"(byebye) to dad in the morning-mom hold them up at the living room window, they can see dad in his car. Julia prefers to hug me, Nicki to kiss me.
July1,2002-Nicki walked on her own, 3 steps for the first time unassisted. Both girls now have white sandals. They like to eat cheerios as a snack.
June 29,2002-Nicki says "craw craw" like a crow when she plays in the backyard-she is mimicing the crows that she heard.
July 11-Julia puts blocks together, both are now sleeping well. Julia715pm-6am,Nicki 8pm-5am

July 16-Girls went to a beach in Wilmette, first time they played and saw the lake and sand. Nicki was a bit tentative in the wter-she preferred to be held by dad. Julia was a fish-she also explored on the beach and found some seashells. Girls also played on swings and Nicki had a horse ride on a swing.
July 28-Nicole walks on her own, and she is so proud that she can do it!
July 29-N&J learned how to turn on the television.

August 1-Girls are dancing a lot. They "swam" for their first time in a small wading pool in the backyard.
August 10-16 - First time sick-both had temperatures approx 101.7, and runny noses. N was sick first, and then J.
August 17- N sees an "airplane" on dad's t-shirt-she point to it and says "this is an airplane" and then she points up to the sky! J is really into collecting small stones in the backyard and outside during walks. They both are very enamored of "Snow white and the 7 dwarves" disney dvd- especially laughng a lot at Dopey.

August 30-Girls climb onto chairs and tables now. Nicki has started sleeping in a bed on her own because she expressed a preference to it rather than her crib. Julia drinks a lot during the day-teas,juice,milk,water. Julia continues to look for and collect small stones and pebbles in the backyard. Both girls like dogs-we see many during our walks. They point at the dogs and smile. Julia has a habit of waving and smiling to people during walks, she is very friendly. Mom put 2 swings in the garage and N&J love playing with it.

September 11,2002-Anniversary of 9/11 wtc terrorist attacks. Both girls slept 730pm-630am uninterruppted for the first time.

October 24-Julia slept through the whole night 7pm-7am on her own. Nicole has been better at sleeping through the night but she needs daddy to saty with her initially and hold her hand to fall asleep. Girls are saying more words "mama,dada,up,hi,bye". They hold out their hands and say "nie ma" (polish for 'that's it') Girls like to walk outside on the sidewalk around the house.

January 28,2004- Julia started to wear underwear, no more diapers, she is using the toilet on her own.

May 1,2004-Soon it will be their third birthday. Today they ate a chicken caesar salad, N loves the croutons. At the rec plex they went down a slide together and said they are a "choo choo train". At night in bed N gives: kiss/eskimo kiss/special blowfish kiss for goodnight. Julia likes to whisper secrets in my ear and smile. N hugs tight and touches the back of my hair on my neck. They are so gentle when they are in bed and sleepy. Today was fun, they were well behaved and happy. They have sharp memories-they still mention remembrances of their auntie Jenney-talking about her and they enjoy playing with their christmas presents she gave them.

July 11,2005- N & J are drawing a lot of pictures using crayons,paints, and magic markers. They are staying in Poland for a few weeks and they mail daddy their drawings once a week.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Sunday

Mowed the lawn, called Poland to talk with my family- the twins(Nicki and Julia) are taking swimming lessons, they wear floaties as they are just 4 year old, they really love the water.

I mowed the lawn today even though it STILL is terribly hot.

Mulholland Drive is on but I keep sneaking out to the back porch to soak in the sun, it is so hot though I can only take brief interludes out there.

I love Mulholland Drive one of these days I will post why. My Mom doesn't care for David Lynch at all.

Tonight I am going to visit Brian and Roley and watch Six Feet Under.

I need an ice water now!

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Climate of Greed?

We live in a climate of greed. We live under the clouds of envy.
We live in the shadow of the pricing gun.
All around us actors and models order us to buy this and live like that .They remind us that if we don’t possess more our lives are empty ,that we are basically worthless beyond the value of the numbers in our bank accounts, that we are here just to accumulate, that the purpose of our very existence is to consume… possess and consume, possess and consume, possess and consume… the silent, hypnotic corporate mantra that is the soundtrack to our frustrated and obsessive lives.
We live in a climate of greed.
We live under the clouds of envy.
Our lives are governed by jealousy, ruled by anxiety. Always wanting more, never being satisfied. If we could just own that bathroom our lives would be perfect, if I just had that car everything would be ok, if we could just possess that dress the numbing, gnawing emptiness that reminds us of the utter pointlessness of life would go away. A life sentence of consumer addictions, shackled to the ruthless, irresponsible whims of advertising executives. Dragged along in their relentless personal slipstream, their desire for us to own more and yet more shit. Piling up mountains of possessions, fields of crap, rivers of waste.
We live in a climate of greed.
We live under the clouds of envy.
Everywhere we look we are reminded that our lives are worthless unless we are famous , powerful or wealthy. Numbers after peoples names in tabloids remind us of their worth and of our worthlessness, remind us that they are to be respected and adored simply because of mathematics. Remind us that the ladder of life has a top and a bottom
We live in a climate of greed,
We live under the clouds of envy.
We live in the shadow of the pricing gun.
We are but slaves, soon to be dust.
We live in a climate of greed.
Possess and consume, possess and consume.

Hot weather

Shucks it is so hot today, I was going to mow the lawn but I decided not to.

I will probably mow tomorrow morning.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Love Songs

One of my sisters is getting married in October and asked me to think of some songs so she can include them on a "wedding CD" that she will give her guests.

I came up with these so far:

the book of love - magnetic fields
halo - the cure
brown eyed girl - van morrison
more than this - roxy music
the drowning man - U2
smile like you mean it - the killers
you're nobody til somebody loves you - dean martin
if i fell - the beatles
i will - the beatles
beyond belief - elvis costello and the attractions
i believe - booth and tha bad angel
temptation - new order
when i'm 64 - the beatles
wild horses - rolling stones
dancing queen - abba
you'll feel it when you're mine - bernard butler
distant lover - marvin gaye
i feel good - james brown

Word Pronunications

Here are some great English words that I'll bet a lot of people recognize but might not pronounce right:

bivouac
mischievous
assuage
exiguity
plethora
coitus
lissom
scion
verdant
avarice
raucous
insouciant
puerile
winsome
polyglot
umbrage
facile
intransigent
paucity
fatuous
inchoate
chimera

The Worst Caesar Salad Ever

Today I had the absolute worst chicken caesar salad of my life- the chicken was undercooked, there was a gigantic green onion stalk and whole tomatoe. Yuck! I tried my best and ate some of the lettuce, and that was it. Oddly enough, the waitress noticed my not eating and kept coming to the table to ask if everything was ok. Then when I was ready to leave she asked if I wanted a box to take the salad home. No thank you!

I watched David Lynch's "Wild At Heart" last night- it was truly creepy, not as out there as "Mulholland Drive" but still. Crispin Glover's character was seriously disturbing, he was putting cockroaches up his ass! I wonder how the heck Lynch comes up with his ideas for his films- the brutal killing at the start of the film, the estranged Mother painting her entire face bright red with lipstick, the creepy Willem Dafoe and company drinking jack daniels and ogling Lulu. Very disturbing- I need to watch it again because as is the norm, I surely missed a lot. It didn't seem as easy to explain as a dream sequence or subconscious/conscious scenes, it was fairly linear.

Heard a wild story from my friend B out in San Diego - he was doing some mountain biking and off the path he claims he saw spiders as big as puppy dogs- now THAT needs to be in a Lynch movie.

More later.

-CW